Addiction and Forgiveness

Tonight’s blog, hey there everyone! We have had one of those days! Not a bad one, but a different one! I have quite a few new friends on Social Media! Not every one knows about my struggles with gambling! We use to go different places, I called them getaways! Just for fun! Then Denny started to get sick, had that long hospital stay! I went completely off the rails! And I didn’t want to stop, my getaway, something for me! Family confronted me, it was getting worse! I did not who I was or what I was becoming! Took over my whole life! Little by little my family was slipping through my fingers! That’s very painful! My hubby was getting sicker, but, so was I! SoI went to an addiction center downtown! Then I started group, that I absolutely love! Words do no good, actions had to be loud and clear! So, I have an addictive personality, my whole well being had to be cleaned out! When I think about her and the overwhelming sadness all the time and living in denial! I am not perfect and God wants me anyway! I love seeing everything differently, in a whole new light! Recovery is amazing and so is my forgiving family! When I was ready, they all supported me! Forgiving myself was my biggest hurdle! January 3rd of this year was 3 years clean! I am loving life even in our trials! So I wrote these two poems yesterday for me! Now I will share them with you! God bless your evening !🤗❤️🤗