Good evening. Monday blog. This is going to be short. I am overwhelmed with sadness today. 31 weeks ago we had to say goodbye! I am exhausted from thinking about it. This is not a normal day for me. I still walked, I took pictures, I am happy talking to deer, no comments, I smile, …
Monthly Archives: August 2020
A Letter To Self…….Who Said You Can’t Do That
Good evening. Sunday blog. Negative-Positive talk. One of my favorite topics! When Denny was a Police Officer, he looked sooo handsome in his uniform, of course the gun goes with it. I was afraid of his gun. I had respect for it! It was not meant to be in my hands or our children. It …
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Climb Your Mountain………Do Not Give Up
Good evening. Saturday blog. What’s your mountain? Do you have one? Sometimes we don’t know, and it could be right in front of us! I didn’t know things, past things, can be conquered, if you are willing to put in the time and effort! I didn’t know I needed recovery, until I got into recovery. …
Never Give Up…….. Your Journey Does Not End Here
Good evening. Friday blog. What’s your dream? Didn’t we all have dreams at some point in time? I did. They were not big career plans. I always wanted to look nice, but, never thought I did. If someone said it, I didn’t believe them! I grew up in the traditional home. Mom married young, had …
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Thankful Thursday
Good evening. Thursday blog. I really do count my blessings. I miss Denny so much, he was a very special blessing, every single day. Nothing could ever replace that. It has been a big birthday month, which means I got to be with a lot of my family. Two soccer games and tomorrow night football, …
What Is True Love Anyway
Good evening. Wednesday blog. For those of you that do not know, our love grew out of a car accident and a ticket, from the policeman to the Dunkin Donut waitress! I love our story, our kids and grandkids do also. You can’t imagine, so many ups and downs in a whirlwind relationship. We were …
Grandchildren Heaven
Good evening. Tuesday blog. August is a big Birthday month with our kids and grandkids! Sports are allowed now, with limited tickets. My second soccer game tonight. My sons family, all there. My daughters family, this week. One plays the flute and I am going to the football game. The other has a birthday. All …
30 Weeks……..I Am Still Breathing
Good evening. Monday blog. I think tonight I will just share my post from this morning. 30 weeks, I cannot even say it without falling apart. My heart and my mind keep getting mixed up. I did 6 miles this morning. I baked cookies, had some errands to run. Mom wanted tacos, she couldn’t wait …
Sunday……….. The Day Of Rest
Good evening. Sunday blog.I have some very fond memories of Sunday’s past. Starting when I was young! My dad took my sister and I to church with his mom, my grandma. My mom always had a big dinner ready when we got home. My mom was an excellent cook and baker in her day. Now, …
I Give Everyday To You Lord
Good evening. Saturday blog. I am learning more everyday how I have to break each day down into bits. So I can process where my feelings are at. I must not forget, one day at a time, always! We are not promised one minute more, let alone a whole day. Tackle each thing I have …
Peace In My Valley
Good evening. Friday blog. I am at peace in many areas. Missing Denny is not one of them! A memory just came through from last August 21st. I was walking in the early morning, my post said how sad my heart was. He was still in the hospital. Today the 21st of August, he is …
Only Appreciation Tonight
Good evening. Thursday blog. Not much of a blog tonight. I have been sitting here for 1 1/2 hour. It’s been a weepy evening! I can’t even put my finger on it! My day went great. I really got a lot done. But, when it comes, I don’t hold back. The last thing I want …
Some Memories Are Bittersweet
Good evening. Wednesday blog. I talk a lot about memories. Now, I tell people, take special pictures. It’s all you will have someday! Then there is the Facebook memories that do not die. I year ago today Denny failed his swallow test while in the hospital. It was pretty shocking to us that he could …
Recognizing Mental Health
Good evening. Tuesday blog. It has a face, a personality, and that has long been hidden as something to be ashamed of and certainly not dinner conversation! I cannot remember a happy time ever, from grade school. I did not know how to relate to much. I believe as part of my mental problems, that …
Change Is Always Possible……… If You Are Still Breathing
Good evening. Monday blog! Everyday when we open our eyes, that’s your second chance at change! Your parents, your siblings, your spouse, your children, or friends are not the reasons why your stuck! You can blame everyone everywhere, in the end, it’s just you! I will be forever grateful for all of the change in …
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All About Stuff
Good evening. Sunday blog. How about it? We all have stuff going on. Stuff that is important to me, might mean 0 to you. It’s all about what a person has going on! We all have a lot on our plate and yet some of us can handle it as it comes and some cannot. …
My Hero…… My Husband
Good evening. Saturday blog. Hero=Denny. Denny=Hero. I know I talk about Denny all the time. He was like magic. Like a Knight in shining armor. He was in the hospital for 9 weeks in 2013. I believe that was the start of Parkinson’s. Diagnosed in 2014. I can’t speak for our kids, but, I did …
The Other Side Of Grief
Good evening! Friday blog! I have been doing something about grief every day. No, the crying has not stopped. I really don’t care if it doesn’t stop. I know where I am in this walk! I’m not perfect. Nor do I want to act like I am! I don’t think this pain is going anywhere. …
A Lot In A Year
Good evening. Thursday blog. Where do I begin? You cannot dwell on things that have not happened yet, but, yet, you know! I tried to take Denny out as much as I could. We had a few short road trips. You know how memories pop up every day on FB. One year ago today, Denny …
For Every Tear…..Brings Positive Actions
Good evening. Wednesday blog. I cannot say enough, what walking and exercise has done for me. My cousin used to tell me he got high from running. I laughed at him. Now he laughs at me. I don’t have anything stopping me from staying out, as long as I want. 7 miles today. It makes …
What Is A Widow
Good evening.Tuesday blog. I do not like my new title. I have avoided it as much as I can. My profiles say wife widow. I really loved being a wife. Especially to Denny. He loved my pancakes with bacon. He liked cereal to. One of the hardest parts of this whole widow thing, how do …
Life Is What We Do……With What We Have Been Given
Good evening. Monday blog. We have choices everyday. If we take a few minutes to collect our thoughts for the day, when we get up. We can plan in our head or write it on paper, as a guide, before we react to something, and then be sorry the rest of the day. Not able …
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Sunday’s Are Special
Good evening. Sunday blog. When I was growing up, there was not a lot open. Sunday’s were respected. Now with the COVID, the illness is the respected one, if you are following rules, mandates and, for the love of a mask! I must say, people have gotten very creative with there masks. Kinda fun looking …
The Best Day Of The Week….. Is Called Family
Good evening. Saturday blog. Today was another family day. Yesterday shopping with my daughter. Riding in the car together, always laughter. Today, Birthday with daughter in law and family. And of course that includes my special little man. He absolutely melts my heart. As happy as he makes my heart, that’s how sad my heart …
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Laughter Is Good For The Soul
Good evening. Friday blog. I do love to smile, and I try to keep it even with tears. Denny always told how much he loved my smile. I loved his smile, but, he did not believe me! I kept telling him! Mom and I laugh at each other, with each other and sometimes we don’t …
I’ll Be Seeing You
Good evening. Thursday blog. Isn’t that a nice thing to say to someone? I think so. It’s also that beautiful, old song, from the movie, The Notebook. If you have not seen that love story, you should. I have always been a sap for love stories. Each one that comes out was my new favorite. …
A Busy Day… Keeps Tears at Bay
Good evening. Wednesday blog! I try to plan my days enough, so my mind is not wandering all over the place. Today I compared my heart to a bouncing ball, all over the place. That does not mean that I can’t get anything done. Because I do. Walking always comes first. No thinking about it. …
Rest In Jesus
Good evening. Tuesday blog. With the way the whole world is right now. How does one not live in fear? God clearly says that worry and fear are wrong choices for life. Sin. You cannot add one extra day to your life by worrying. Fear and worry are exhausting! I really just came through the …
Transcending Loss……by Ashley Davis Bush
Good evening. Monday blog. I have been reading this book. It is excellent. Why did it take me so long to start it. It all makes perfect sense. When applied along the way to honor our loved one! I’m not going to lie, the past two days, I gave into some depression. I didn’t like …
Some Anniversaries Will Always Hurt
Good evening. Sunday blog! I even hesitated to share this tonight, its part of our story, it can’t be left out. All of you that are married, have life partners, however or whatever way you are connected to the love of your life. I cannot stress it enough, I am not an expert, I am …
A Life Well Lived
Good evening. Saturday blog. My title here has a lot written about. Just the words bring a certain amount of peace. I read that happiness is not a goal, it’s a by-product of a life well lived! Eleanor Roosevelt, a smart woman. Denny and I did not always choose happiness, we let circumstances get in …
Marilyn’s Heart 