Good evening! Thursday blog! Happy Halloween! Without a bunch of details! Called the squad at 11:00am! It’s been a rough day, the kind that drains you! Thank you Jesus! We just got in a room! 8:30pm! Just that fast, our plans changed overnight! Sure keeps me on my toes! Funny I should say that, I …
Monthly Archives: October 2019
Strength From Music
Good evening! Wednesday blog! Way back on Jan. 3rd, 2016, I decided with much help and support from my family, I decided to quick gambling, as well as other behaviors! All of it was destroying me, my life, my relationships, All of them! Living a secret life is exhausting, full of misery! Therapy, group therapy, …
He Calms The Storms
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I have some kind of storm going on everyday, in my heart, in my mind, in my soul! This is a season in our life, that I would gladly throw away! I cannot describe the many feelings that go through me on any given day! Everyday is different! I ask God …
Lonely, Resentful, Bitter
Good evening! Monday blog! Never say never! These are some of the not so nice words we let ourselves believe and become! They don’t do anything for us, but make one feel worse, if you are suffering, in any way, feeling sorry for yourself can really drag you down! When one thing after another brings …
Self Care Self Trust
Good morning! Sunday blog! As I promised! I feel somewhat refreshed this morning! Mom said, why are you all dressed up? I said, for me! I wish I could go to church! I have three churches that I love! 1st one, our church home of 40 years! Our salvation came from the teaching at that …
Self Care Self Trust
Good evening! Saturday blog! I am taking sometime for myself right! now! I can’t keep my eyes open! To be continued tomorrow! You all get some sleep! Goodnight! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️
Confident Confidence
Good evening! Friday blog! Well, when Denny first got the tube, I thought how awful! I never thought about taking care of it! Everyone said it’s a skilled nursing thing! I was nervous! We are talking about life here! A man who just loved what he ate! Flavor, texture! Think about your favorite foods, all …
Trial And Error
Good afternoon! Wednesday and Thursday blog! Sooo sorry I have not written to keep up! I had every intention of writing yesterday morning! When the hospital bed became a priority for Denny, we had to clear out the room! Moms neighbor and my brother in law, Gary moved the queen bed! Her furniture weighs a …
Grateful
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Short one! I am so grateful tonight to have this man beside me! He wants the light out! Switching my blog back to mornings! Thank you for being here for us! Goodnight! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️
There’s No Place Like Home
Good evening! Monday blog! Everybody knows that famous phrase, from that famous movie! I know Denny has to feel that way! This has been our way of life since August 2013! If I were to sit down and add all of that time together, I’m sure it would be over a year! Let’s not forget …
My Shoes
Good evening! Sunday blog! As good as yesterday was , that’s how fast Parkinson’s and Dementia can rear it’s ugly head, and give you a completely different day! So I am up for the task when I walk in! But, as the day moves on, so do the changes in him! I know what I …
Sweetest Day?
Good evening! Saturday blog! Sweetest Day use to be a big deal! Hurt and offended if I was not acknowledged! Flowers, candy, big fancy cards that say all of that mushy stuff, dinner or all of it! Don’t get me wrong! All of that is wonderful, makes you feel special! I loved it! I forgot …
He Colored My World
Good evening! Friday blog! Everything is in place for Denny to come home! He has been cooped up since August 17th! He doesn’t believe me! I took a break this evening! I went to Whitmer to see Clay! They were getting beat pretty bad when I left! I only wanted to see the band! Our …
Even Imperfections
Good evening! Thursday blog! My relationship with Denny and he would say the same of me, was complicated to say the least! We both knew early on, we both came with a lot of baggage! We ran on feelings! It’s funny, I can chuckle about it now! We have so much more than feelings! Our …
God Mend My Heart Please
Good evening! Wednesday blog! I did not get to walk! It rained all morning! I spent a good portion of the day, on the phone with insurance companies! Never fun! Found out this afternoon, Denny is not coming home until Tuesday! Waiting on Medicare! Disappointed, is an understatement! I have been crying for an hour …
A Long Road
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Good news today! Denny’s discharge is Friday! Everything he needs has been ordered, and on the way! I do not have a lot to say tonight! I’m tired and I don’t care how cold it is in the morning! I am walking! I have to keep some normalcy in my life! …
Gods Seasoning
Good evening! Monday blog! Some might say at our age, 66 and 76, that we are in the golden years! I have heard some people call it the rusty years, either joking or with sarcasm! I have heard twilight years also! There are many seasons in life! A lot of different terms! I would not …
A Grieving Process
Good evening! Sunday blog! When one is at a loss for words! When nothing, no matter how you try to rationalize it, makes sense! When you can’t ask why, because I do not question God! But, I feel I am grieving something everyday! Not just my losses, but, Denny’s also! Grief is a process! I …
Time, Please Stand Still
Good evening! Saturday blog! As much as I loved today, every minute! Coming home alone is something I really don’t want to get use to! I am very emotional today! God help me! Does crying ever stop? It’s getting late, I want to walk in the morning and go to church! I’ve had three days …
Grandchildren!
Good evening! Friday blog! This is a short one, it’s getting late! Giving up sleep is worth every minute I just spent with my beautiful, oldest and first grandchild of mine! She is one of my greatest loves! I did her wedding cake and cupcakes! This week I did her baby shower cookies! I cannot …
Home
Good evening! Thursday blog! We had a care meeting today at Otterbein! My Denny is finally coming home! A year and a half ago! We sold our house of 40 years! I took it hard, all of our memories in that house! We made home here at moms! Now Denny’s body needs more attention, from …
Perseverance
Good evening! Wednesday blog! Persistence in doing something despite difficulty or delay! Hang in there! Do not give up! Finish your journey in this life! We do not know how our journey is going to end, but we can keep steering it on the right path! I know for me, I need to step back …
Mindfulness
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I had a therapy session this morning, to touch base, make sure I am still sane! Then group is two hours! Always wonderful conversation, about life, what triggers people! New intern on the scene! I liked her a lot! She had a stack of books, all different sizes and colors, they …
Patience and Wisdom
Good evening! Monday blog! In light of my outburst yesterday, patience and wisdom come to mind! A long time ago at church, from people with great humor would say something light about these two! Watch how you pray, if you pray for these two, God will give you something everyday to practice with! These two, …
Self Control
Good evening! Sunday blog! Well, I will be truthful, right up front! I lost it today! I went to church this morning, and that’s how fast the devil jumped on me! Yes, I believe in the devil and he will use any circumstance! I’m not saying what it was, I am not running anyone down! …
Love And Commitment
Good evening! Saturday blog! I am so happy, that at my age, I found, that you need both love and commitment together to form an everlasting relationship when you say your vows! I know this is a stretch for some! Think back to the day that you saw that particular person! Little things happen every …
I Have No Words
Good evening! Friday blog! God is still good! I am not weary, I feel weary! There is a difference! I do not run on feelings! I love poetry! I have not written any in a while! I will share one of the greatest poems, I think, that has ever been written! When I tell Denny …
When You See His Tears
Good evening! Thursday blog! It’s not getting any easier! Denny slept a lot today! When he is awake he is very anxious, just because! Let’s clarify! I hate Parkinson’s, I hate what it is doing to my husband, robbing him of life, physically and mentally! I love Denny! When I say I am at peace …
My Soul Is Still Well
Good evening! Wednesday blog! I asked if your soul is well? I asked if you had peace like a river? I decorated Denny’s room today for Halloween! After he saw it he fell back to sleep! When speech therapy came he was unresponsive, for longer than they were comfortable with! He was left alone in …
It Is Well With My Soul
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Well, in light of all of my positivity last night! You all know I get up early! So, at 3:30am I jumped up and started my cake! Cinnabon! That is a great cake! It turns out perfect every time! Very organized, got downtown in plenty of time! The Zeph Center downtown, …
Marilyn’s Heart 