Good morning. Saturday blog. Happy Halloween! I wrote last night and fell asleep. Sorry about that. No my cookies are not done. Never fear, I start early. I have always loved Halloween! I wore a costume every year, except the year that our daughter was born. I wore costumes to Mothers Club, Denny’s rehab. Of …
Monthly Archives: October 2020
Soon………. A Whole Year
Good evening. Thursday blog. Just three more months, Denny will be gone one whole year! My grief is just as raw as last January! I actually choke on it! I was looking for something earlier and a folder fell on the floor. There were some papers, one said Bucket List in Denny’s handwriting. Our daughter …
I Hate Fatigue
Good evening. Wednesday blog. The only time I am not tired is when I am walking! I feel like I could conquer the world, until I sit down. Maybe it’s just from being sick. I expect a lot out of myself! Sometimes that’s not good! God is still good and still on the throne! Good …
The Winds Of Change Are Blowing
Good evening. Tuesday blog! I guess if you sit tight and ride out any storm, peace and calm will come, all by itself! Maybe tears turn into smiles more often. Maybe you can look at pictures, cry if you must, but not feel destroyed! Maybe you catch yourself smiling more for no reason. Maybe you …
39 Weeks Gone……Impossible
Good evening. Monday blog. Life is so complicated! Sometimes I think I am going to choke on it. Yet, my God is right beside me. Denny and I in younger days. Our 4 kids and Denny’s last 6 months! Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Fear Is A Crippler
Good evening. Sunday blog. Do not live in fear and worry. Jesus is first and foremost in all we do and seek to do. I want a calm mind and heart when I lay down on my pillow! That’s not easy, since the evening is my worse time. It takes a lot of talking to …
The Lords Day Is Coming
Good evening. Saturday blog. I have to get to bed for church. I had a wonderful day. Gods blessings were everywhere! Enjoy your Sunday, the day of rest! Good night. God bless. ❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
What In The World
Good evening. Friday blog. In these very uncertain times, sometimes we don’t think before we act. I ask myself that every day, What In The World. I have no answer. Only God holds the answers to all of these mysteries. I try to wait patiently. That is a tall order when it hurts so much. …
Just A Memory Can Tear Your Heart Out
Good evening. Thursday blog. I tried and tried to write last evening! I was just plain tired. I went back to work today! I love my families that I clean for! Walked the past two evenings. After getting ready for bed, memory pictures came up. He looks so sad and he was home. His beautiful …
Back To Normal….. Whatever Normal Is
Good morning. Thursday blog. Sorry no blog last night, I was so tired. Starting back to work today. I have a couple of days open, if anyone would like some holiday cleaning. Have a fantastic day. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
The Road Least Traveled
Good evening. Tuesday blog. Many of us on the Widow path, we don’t hear a lot of anything. Nobody knows that path or what to say about it. Not until you slip on those shoes. If I had not learned positive choices and how to make positive decisions, I would be buried in depression. Denny …
You Just Never Know
Good evening. Monday blog. I have shared before how quickly something can change when you let your guard down, when you are not looking! Somethings can be painful and somethings can be a surprise out of nowhere. Patience and putting it all in Gods hands. Those are key and should not be forgotten. God says, …
When Prayer Is All You Have…….It’s All You Need
Good evening. Sunday blog. Every day my eyes are opened wider than the day before. I might hurt a little more. I might still be crying. Each tear makes me stronger. I will not give up, nor will I give in. Prayer is the only tool, prayer is your only weapon. Cling to God, His …
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God…….. Hold Me Tight
Good evening. Saturday blog. I just want to rest in Gods arms. Grant me peace that passes all understanding. You are my guide, with all of the promises I need, to see me through each minute of everyday. I am human. I don’t always have or use common sense. That doesn’t mean I’m uncaring, neglectful …
I Missed You All
Good evening. Friday blog. That was a short vacation. Just enough to let me see and know how much I missed all of you. Sharing a couple of images. God is good. Goodnight. God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Social Media Vacation
Good evening. Wednesday blog. Everybody needs a break. I have been on FB since 2010, without a break. Nows the time. My family and I need a new focus for a while! I will miss all of you. I will be back. Much love to all of you. Thank you for your support in all …
Does It Ever Stop………..Grief
Good evening. Tuesday blog. I am extremely late tonight! Grief! It flies in and out, like a beautiful bird! You say goodbye, but, did you really? It keeps showing up. No timetable, no timeframe. My only solace, is God. My shield, my protector against unwanted things that can cut a grieving person to shreds! Who …
Unexpected Loss
Good evening. Monday blog. I am telling you all again. I don’t care what is going on between you and family. It shouldn’t matter how far away one lives from family. You only get one time around, ONE! I have shared before, I have had some real ugly touch my life. Because I held it …
God Is Steady, Through It All
Good evening! Sunday blog. I would ask that you continue to pray for my unspoken request. My soul is weary. I miss Denny so much, sometimes I feel I could die from it! I have faith, I know where he is. Not one person can relate to what I am saying, unless you are on …
God Is In Control
Good evening. Saturday blog. God is good, no matter what, He has this whole world and every single person in His hands. I shared on FB. I have an unspoken request. Thank you. Love to all of you. Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
No Words Tonight
Good evening. Friday blog. Loss for words tonight! I’ll be back tomorrow. It’s ok, to not be ok. God is good! Good night. God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
My Kids and Grandkids………are My Everything
Good evening. Thursday blog. What a blessing my day was. Started at 4:00am again. That is my natural alarm. I was not going to walk, that did not feel right, so I did. Work at 9:30am. For those of you that do not know where I work, for myself. I clean houses and I love …
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I Am Tired……..Again
Good evening. Wednesday blog. I walked 4 miles this morning, I made two different kind of muffins, I bowled three games and I have been up since four. I want to go to bed. Forgive me. I work tomorrow, then, soccer game at Lake High. Have a great night, and sleep tight. Good night. God …
Heart Happy Holidays……..All Holidays
Good evening. Tuesday blog. Decorated outside yesterday for Fall and Halloween. One of my favorite things to do. I feel if it makes my heart happy, it must do that for others, I hope. In 2013 when Denny was in the hospital for 9 weeks, our daughter came over. She knows I like decorating. She …
9 Months Without you……….. An Eternity
Good evening. Monday blog. When I am laughing, it’s sincere laughing, the kind that hurts the rib cage. As soon as I hit my room, an ocean of tears, the kind that make your breathing stop and my heart hurts! I posted a little bit ago, Memory Lane should be visited together. Remember when? Followed …
I Miss You More On Sunday
Good evening. Sunday blog. When the kids were older we went out to eat every Sunday, at a different restaurant. After church. After empty nest came down the road. Sunday’s were ours. Dinners out and rides in the car. I would always take his hand and tell him how much I loved him, he said, …
A Widows Heart
Good evening. Saturday blog. This is the title of my new group. I am not finished setting it up, but, it is up to look at. I am just sharing this quickly. I am off to bed! I have been tired all day. I did take Beagle for a ride, for ice cream. She goes …
Pregnancy And Infant Loss
Good evening. Friday blog. October is awareness, for this very real and painful loss and the grief we suffer alone. Nobody wants to talk about it. I had a miscarriage at 4 months along, in April of 1971. Guess what? When I left the hospital, it was was never mentioned what I went through, at …
Busy……..Grief
Good evening. Thursday blog. I walked this morning, I worked today, got a bite to eat, stopped for some groceries, and went to my grandsons football game. The other grandson was away for soccer. I do love being able to do all and get it done. Smile, laugh, good conversation. All of these great, but …
Marilyn’s Heart 