Good evening. Wednesday blog. As full as my heart is with sadness and tears, it’s just as full with thankfulness! I have been missing in action long before Denny passed! I know I pulled away from life! I wanted every possible moment I could grab with Denny. Holding his hands, touching his face, saying I …
Monthly Archives: September 2020
My Grief Meter
Good evening. Tuesday blog. It is still running. The needle goes up and down. The nurse asked me today, how you doing? I said, the waves have not stopped! I don’t know when or if they will ever stop! I know what I did and had in place before Denny passed. I’m not going to …
Gods Promises
Good evening. Monday blog. Just one of those days. I’m thinking, a little bit of burnout. I did not accomplish very much today. Although I should not say that. 2 loads of wash and walked 6 miles and took beautiful pictures, that Buzz on the Bay likes. Tomorrow, my busy starts all over again. Busy …
A Widows Tear
Good evening. Sunday blog. I googled this today. It’s a beautiful flower, from bulbs, that are very unique. Picture at the end. I worked on cookies this morning from 4:00 am to 9:00 am. That’s cleanup, boxing. All that good stuff. I even made it to church, only to have missed half. Time changed. If …
Taking A Break Tonight
Good evening. Saturday blog! Couple more dozen to get done in the morning. Wedding Shower is at 2:00pm. Not to worry, I always get done. I am excited to relax with family! Talk to you all tomorrow night! God is good. I need some sleep! Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Fun Friday
Good evening. Friday blog. What a great day I had! Got up, super early. Worked on cookies, squeezed in a walk. Got ready for bowling. These people know how to have fun. DooWop music while we bowl. Oh how I wish Denny were here! Just plain fun! Got home, took a break. Went over to …
Lost Time Is…….. Lost
Good evening. Thursday blog. I fight regret everyday. What good does it do? None!!! Regret is a negative destroyer! Not one thing can be done to change the past, leave it there. If COVID had not come along, I would be with all of my family, at all of the grandchildren’s events and sporting events! …
Laughter In Uncertainty
Good evening. Wednesday blog! I a big on making moments count. Especially in light of our last 7 years! None of us knows! When you get the chance to see someone and tell them how you feel, do it. I said what a busy week I have. I was making icing this morning, 2nd day …
Laughter Is Good For The Soul
Good evening. Tuesday blog. I went to Inkeys tonight for our daughters B-day, with her family. I said she cracks me up. When we were able to have big family holidays, daughter and daughter in law are hilarious together. I love sarcastic humor. Don Rickles and Regis Philbin, just plain funny! That’s my 2 gals …
Busy Day…….. Equals Very Tired
Good evening. Monday blog.I cannot keep my eyes open. I walked 6 miles, made our daughters B-day cake for tomorrow, I made cookie dough, baked half. My cousin came over, an hour later he was in the ER. Prayers for him. They kept him! I went across the field to take care of his Lily …
In This Life…………..
Good evening. Sunday blog. You will have trouble and trials of many kind. It is so true. I do not know how one survives the many things that life throws are way. I choke on it everyday. I cling to Gods promises. I wouldn’t be able to breathe or get past the pain I am …
Kindness, Continued
Good evening. Saturday blog. It’s a really new normal that everyone wants. Something that all should have been practicing for years! I never heard anything about kindness growing up. My parents were not mean to us, I don’t remember anyone saying kindness. We were to be seen, not heard. I never heard that word at …
Kindness
I am off to bed. Start fresh tomorrow. Thank you for understanding and your support. Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
You Cannot Trust Grief …… It Is A Thief And A Liar
Good evening. Thursday blog. So many reasons to be happy about things, and I am. I worked today. Cleaning houses does keep the mind busy. Went home, had supper compliments of mom. Got ready for my grandsons football game. Being with family always helps. Driving home, The Old Songs by Barry Manilow, we saw him …
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Love, Grief And Balance
Good evening. Wednesday blog. Well, I did it! I joined the senior bowlers again. This time, I’m staying, unless I get sick. So, God willing. I was a little nervous. Afraid to venture out of my comfort zone, meaning this bedroom. Two people I bowled with have lost spouses. They welcomed me with open arms. …
Life Keeps Moving
Good evening. Tuesday blog. If you don’t move with it, you might get lost in the shuffle. Denny, without a doubt was the most ambitious man I have ever met. The Toledo Police Department, worked all 3 shifts in a rotation. Your body barely had time to catch up and time for another! He projected …
Grief Tatoos
Good evening. Monday blog. Are expressions of love. I am sure there are many that don’t understand the concept of such a thing. I can assure you, I am not delusional. I love all of my extended family, kids, grandkids, cousins, etc. Just about all of them percentage wise, have tatoos. Now, I understand. Sometimes …
Grief Waves Do Not Stop
Good evening. Sunday blog. I don’t think I have anything to say, that you have not already heard! When I was 16, our family went to Florida to see my Grandpa. Any one who knew me then and knows me now, my hair is always fixed, in public, even the beach in Miami. You don’t …
Forever Yours
Good evening. Saturday blog. Forever yours means, With love for eternity, or the end of a letter, or just the end. Our only end is here on earth. In the final end, Forever Yours does mean love for eternity. Then we will be complete! No more tears of missing you. I hope your eyes are …
What About Before And After
Good evening. Friday blog. Sometimes we skirt around topics. I love before and after pictures of anyone and everyone. Obviously they put in work somewhere at some point in time! All of TV talk shows and magazines zero in on how wonderful change can be and is. So far, I am fortunate enough to still …
Grandkids First
Good evening. Thursday blog. It is 11:00pm. Way past my bedtime. I went to my grandsons football game. He scored 3 touchdowns. Going to bed! I will write 1st thing tomorrow after my walk! Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Sad Or Glad Day…….. You Decide
Good evening. Wednesday blog. After Grief Share last week, I have been analyzing my moods and feelings! I myself am not living a sad or defeated life. My spouse of 42 years, total time together was 45 years. I am sad. No other way to describe it. It hurts to my very core! I also …
87 Is Just A Number
Good evening. Tuesday blog. Mom had so many Birthday wishes! All across the USA! Pizza, pie and cake. Family called and stopped by. She had quite a day. She was tired, went right to bed. Which is where I am heading. She had a wonderful day. Appreciate your Birthdays, you don’t know if it’s your …
Gone 8 Months……… Still Unbelievable
Good evening. Monday blog. 8 months today, still unreal. I don’t know if it will ever really sink in! No walk because of storms. Made moms Peach Birthday Pies. Her favorite, Peach anything! My youngest grandson asked for Paprika’s last Spring. Then the pandemic and distancing. Today he got it. He kept saying how good …
Tears Are Prayers Too
Good evening. Sunday blog. God knows my mind and heart. I don’t have to be sitting in this room to cry. Whatever I’m doing that we might have done together, brings tears. We did a lot together. When we sing about heaven at church, I cry, thinking of the day we will be together. I …
Memories That Shake Your Soul
Good evening. Saturday blog. I chose this title tonight, because of all of the memories that keep popping up on FB everyday! I believe that is a wonderful feature to take us back to a place in time! It was August of 2019 that things started going downhill. Therapy was not helping him anymore. The …
What Is Real Love
Good evening. Friday blog. I heard an old Dolly Parton and Kenny Rogers song the other day. One I have not heard in a long time. Take the time to read the words, very much Denny and I. We didn’t always act like we were in love, but we were always. We really put each …
Grief Share Tonight
Good evening. Thursday blog.I am taking tonight off! Evenings are my worst while writing about Denny and I. I did work today and went to the class starting back for the fall. Please excuse me. I just want to go to bed! Thank you for understanding. I’ll be back tomorrow. God is good! Good night. …
When You Walk Through A Storm….. You’ll Never Walk Alone
Good evening. Wednesday blog. Only God knows the storms He sees us through and why! Death of our loved ones is promised for all of us! The painful storms are not knowing when, how, age. None of us could possibly prepare for any of it in advance! We have, we must accept what we cannot …
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Patience Is A Virtue
Good evening. Tuesday blog. Who made that statement, probably had zero tolerance! I am patient with others, I hope. I do not cut myself a lot of slack. I think I am at a 50/50 I smile as much as I cry or I cry as much as I smile. Do not have it all …
Marilyn’s Heart 