Memories That Shake Your Soul

Good evening. Saturday blog. I chose this title tonight, because of all of the memories that keep popping up on FB everyday! I believe that is a wonderful feature to take us back to a place in time! It was August of 2019 that things started going downhill. Therapy was not helping him anymore. The longer he went without moving the worse it became! It was hard to witness. We did not want to believe it was happening! So everyday has been pictures of him at hospitals and nursing homes, with me or our children and grandchildren! If someone had said we should be prepared, I don’t know if I would have believed them. But, we would have had a big ????? I would have brought him home! I know all of this is hind sight. I believe my sadness and sadness of our children is from going through the memories this fall as we relive last Fall. We don’t want it erased, there our special memories. This is the first year of all the firsts. Makes it all very hard. Bittersweet memories. I won’t give up any of them. I don’t and won’t live in regret. I lived with him over half of my life. I was only 21 when we met. He had already put in a lot of life at 31. Many thought we would never make it. We fooled them all. It was touch and go for awhile, God was continually gluing us back together. By the way, it’s the only glue that works. Our grieving together is far from over. Still, I will keep moving forward with the help of God and my grief group! Their great and have been through loss also. Like minds. We all need helping hands together. Just being with them again was a help. I know I don’t have to go it alone! Here is something to think about. Denny bought me 3 Phantom Of The Opera tickets for my 50th Birthday. I took our 2 children, we ate at Olive Garden, my all time favorite time with them as adults! It’s a memory in my scrapbook, as I started reading, the play was on January 27th 2003. Denny passed away on January 27th 2020, also the day of our grandsons 15th Birthday 2020. Coincidence, I don’t think so. Denny had his ways, God has better ways! Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️