What About Before And After

Good evening. Friday blog. Sometimes we skirt around topics. I love before and after pictures of anyone and everyone. Obviously they put in work somewhere at some point in time! All of TV talk shows and magazines zero in on how wonderful change can be and is. So far, I am fortunate enough to still have a success story, 10 years later! I started at 234! Unfortunately, many have gained back at least half of the weight they lost, after surgery. When I had my 9 year check up last November, she said it is rare for a person to still be losing weight 9 years out. An addictive personality is not a good thing, but it can be changed and reversed. Recovery for addiction, I have said many times, the best thing that has ever happened to me. For me, changed my life, saved my life. All of my numbers before surgery were sky high. Depression weighing on me. Weight loss is not going to fix you or bring you happiness, if you don’t fix what is going on in your head. I use to control my weight, but over the years, I call it, for me, lazy weight. It comes from not loving yourself and not taking care of yourself! You have to know, you are worth it! Now, I am tired of hearing, you do not need to lose anymore weight. I eat 3 meals a day, and I have snacks. I just cannot stuff myself. I still get sick if I indulge. I have not been sorry one day since I had it done. In this 10 years that has passed, a lot of life happened. In the beginning I wanted to be small again and pleasing to my husbands eyes. He loved me just the way I was. I did not love me. I gained even more weight when my dad passed away. Not knowing how to grieve properly. Two years out, I started to gain weight from a medication, I had 3 joint replacements from being heavy. Wearing out my own body. I was down to 160 lbs. I gained 30 lbs. back and kept it on for 3 years. Got off of that med. Started choosing positive behaviors for the negatives. Walking was one of them. In 2015, walking took off the 30 lbs. and 20 more. Wow, walking does work. I started feeling great. Even with many setbacks, I got right back as soon as I could. To this day I have not given it up. I am at 125, and a whole lot of inches. I am also healthy now. Denny, my husband of 42 years became sick in 2013. Gods plans are better than ours. He knew I would need to be healthy, mentally, physically and spiritually for what was ahead of us. This past January I lost my love, my best friend, the one who loved me through it all. I loved him through it all. I did receive the strength to take care of Denny night and day. With a very supportive family, that has loved me through it all. I will not dishonor his memory by going backwards. I have moments when I feel destroyed! I know I am not and I rise above. Because of Jesus who went to the cross for me, even me! Amen! Please take care of your bodies, you only get one! Good night. God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️