Rest In Jesus

Good evening. Tuesday blog. With the way the whole world is right now. How does one not live in fear? God clearly says that worry and fear are wrong choices for life. Sin. You cannot add one extra day to your life by worrying. Fear and worry are exhausting! I really just came through the worst, most painful time in my life. I did have to let go and let God every single day! I didn’t have time for that kind of thinking. I just poured my heart out to my journal after Denny went to sleep. Not one of us can change one thing, about what’s going on. It doesn’t matter how it started, where it came from. It is no respecter of anyone or age! God is in control and He alone has the answers. I am respecting the law, my moms feelings and I wear my mask without a fuss. But, quite frankly, if it’s my time, it’s in Gods hands. I decided quite awhile ago watching my husband, I want to leave this world gracefully. None of us knows how or when. I am not afraid to die. Especially when I know who is waiting for me. I allowed a lot of garbage in our life and Denny too. Bipolar can make some real crazy. I am not offended by my own words! One thing remained for Denny and I. We never stopped loving each other, we believed in each other. We knew that Jesus could restore us. What we didn’t know, is what he chooses to restore us. We found our love stronger than ever, till death, through illness! That is a bitter pill.. But, we swallowed it. I could sit around and cry with regret, it’s not going to bring him back or honor him. Plus, love does not die. I have pictures, memories and witnesses to prove it. Our family! God grace is sufficient, even for me! I rest in Jesus. I want a peaceful life in Jesus. I can not control the world and what is going on around me. My job, to control myself, my choices and how I see others and treat others. Regardless of race, gender, other people’s life choices are none of my business. It’s all in Gods hands. Do you remember the song? He’s Got The Whole World In His Hands! I love that song. God is good. God has a lot to say about rest in Him. Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️