Mental Anguish

Hey there! Saturday evening blog! This whole month has been dedicated to mental health and awareness! I am getting pretty passionate about this, since Denny and I lived through it and came out on the other side! Our relationship bounced in and out of reality! When that kind of pain is going on, you take it out on each other, because you blame the other person for all of your mistakes! Your children suffer, might even blame themselves! Everything they say and do, you take every word personally! So much mental anguish, all you do is lash out, your mind moving in 50 different directions, no sleep on mania days and then the cannot get out of bed days! I am sure our families were torn, not knowing what to do! I had never heard the word bipolar until Denny was diagnosed! I am not airing dirty laundry! This is a very serious issue! Mental illness is terminal, people, especially young’s ones are taking there own lives! Some of you might know the anguish of this kind of pain, my heart goes out to you! In the 50’s these things were not spoken of, things like, it’s a blue day, snap out of it! I myself am guilty of saying such heartless things! But then, you just know when things are not right! Everything is extreme, loud, offensive! Unfortunately we did not want to accept our diagnoses, you cannot jump in and out of medications like that! Praise God and his amazing grace waiting for me to come back! I tried life on my own without God for 17 years! What a mess I made! That is why time is so precious to me! We are only given one life, it is precious, it is a gift from God! I am reluctant to share this, but, some things need to be shared, so some can see that change is possible! Without detail, I attempted twice, one landed me a night in jail, second time a week in psychiatric! I have been in three times! Med adjustments are very important! Denny and I go to a clinic, our two Drs. are excellent! Most important we are stable! I am not ashamed, of Denny or myself, we have sick brains! My heart is so thankful, for many reasons! It is so hard to see someone suffer! So thankful my family loves and forgave us! Thank God tonight for your life, it is precious! Every one of us was put here for a reason! God bless! Enjoy the rest of your weekend! Love and happiness to all of you!❤️🤗🤗❤️