Missing Dad

Good evening! Friday blog! Since Denny and I moved back into my childhood home, with mom, I sit in this living room a lot! Don’t think my bipolar mind isn’t all over the map! How can I not think about, seeing him on the couch, sitting at the table! When I bake! I think of him! He liked his goodies, especially pie! I hear his hearty laugh! He loved taking all of us in the car, Clay Football games, no matter where it took place! We would leave right after he got home from work! It does not take much to flood my mind with memories!! I now know why everyone loved him so much! He truly was a giving man! I have so many regrets! I wish I could sit down with him one more time! Some of the great grandkids did not get to know him! My grieving took its toll! That’s when I gained a lot of weight! Dad was not real active, his love of food packed pounds on! I knew I had to do something about mine! I wish my dad could see me now, see how far I have come with recovery! Time just keeps going faster! In honor of my dad, I wrote this in April! If you are fortunate enough to still have your dad, tell him, even if he can’t or won’t answer! Regret is an awful thing to live with! If your dad is already gone with unresolved things from the past, I urge you to sit down and write a letter of love and forgiveness to him! Get that negative thought process out of your mind and heart! It will eat you alive! Our fathers did the best they could, in some very hard situations! If your father could come back, I believe they would want the very best for us! Be your best you for you! Be happy in this life! I love my dad more now than I did when he was still living! God bless! Get a good nights rest!❤️🤗🤗❤️