Dear Dad

Good evening! Wednesday blog! This topic of my Father, is near and dear to my heart! In my teenage bipolar years, I had a lot of very negative thinking going on! Bipolar thought process is so distorted! My dad had issues himself that he never dealt with, as I have touched on in my poem! He had some very serious and painful things, he did not get over or have the proper tools to get over these things! Myself, having gone through addiction recovery, I see my dad and my distortions of things so differently! Once again, I will say, regret is an awful thing to live with! Because, it can never come back or be changed! So, at this statement, if you have time, take it! Even if the other person is not receptive! Do it for you and your own mental health! You have to live with you, after their gone! I could cry a river, for time I wish I could have back to talk to him, about things, to say I’m sorry for my part in hurting my family! To share my recovery with him! My dad was put in another home as a baby, that family adopted him later! I don’t think they did much as a family, except church! Drafted into the Army and then a POW! Heartbreaking! But I know now, how much he loved his family! He gave us everything we needed at every stage of our life! I am sorry I did not get to know you, the way, I wish I could know you now! Living here in your home with mom has helped me put a lot of things to rest! That is always a good thing! I miss you and I love you with all of my heart! Thank you for everything you did and gave to take care of us! You did the best with what you knew! You were the best! I can’t stress it enough, take time! God will help you open doors you don’t even know exist! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️