My Love Letter

Good morning! Saturday blog! Today is a love letter to my Denny, and our marriage of 42 years! Believe me, when I say, we took each other to hell and back! That is no exaggeration! My reasons for sharing this, I have said before, we are both bipolar, if you know anything about that, you know what I am talking about! We were both in our late 40s before we found out, at separate times! Neither one of us wanted or did we take responsibility for ourselves or our actions! How we and our children survived that kind of mental anguish, I believe is a miracle! I do believe in miracles, because I believe in God, and his word, and his promises to us! Long painful lessons we learned from each other and God! One thing we know for sure, and has stood the test of 42 years, is our love and commitment to each other! With help, with recovery, with medication, and faithfulness, you can overcome anything! The fact that I now experience joy through this test of illness, is also a miracle! I look in the mirror when I get up, I use to ask why are we going through this, please take it away! Now I ask myself, are you going to have a good day or a bad day! GOOD DAY!!! With Parkinson’s, that illness can be different every day, not bad, different! So, we have to roll with the punches! I have to be positive and stay positive, for both of us! That’s not always easy! I do not want the golden years of our life to be memories of sitting on a couch all day long! Winter is hard enough, getting around with a walker and wheelchair will be even harder! So I am trying to pack some life and memories into our summers! I am almost 10 years younger than Denny! And I am healthier than I was at 23 when we married! So, I am up for the task! I want to remember that he was still able to smile, even with the struggles! That’s what I look for every day, his smile! It is a very hard thing to swallow, that you wasted time and years, love is wonderful, all of the feelings that you have when you fall in love, are wonderful! Feelings are fleeting, do not depend on feelings! Commitment is what it is all about! So thankful that I learned the meaning, the true meaning of that word! Don’t let feelings run your life! You will be disappointed! God bless all of you and your relationships! You never know what will be asked of you!❤️🤗🤗❤️