Let It Go

Good evening! Tuesday blog! I just feel drained, like a cup spilled on the floor! Fear and worry, are not from God! I do not want to give into that! I will admit now, I begged God, please don’t take him! Not like this! So that was fear, and God forgives! When you sit in a hospital room day in and day out, there is no other place I want to be! I’m there, I want to be, I need to be! But the mind is like a tape recorder, it can play over and over and it can destroy a person! Turn your mind and heart to the one that will take it and carry it all! Just like that, burden lifted! What if there are things you wanted to do, things in your heart that were never discussed, because no one knew how to talk about pain! When we chose to forgive and forget, that’s the tough part! When a person says, I forgive, but I can’t forget! They have not forgiven! You have to let go of the past! I only want to look in Denny’s eyes and have him see, tender loving care from me! Our past does not matter anymore! I do and say the right things, but when I shut the bedroom door, I let it all out! I sit down and cry with my Beagle! In the morning, I wake up at 3:00 am, my own inner clock! Walking prepares me, to do it all over again! We are in Gods hands, Gods plan! He will give us the power and strength to see this through! I cling to those promises! Let it go! Whatever it is, it’s not worth it! Do not go to bed angry! You never know when that bed will become empty! You do not want to live with that! Have a great night of rest! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️