Stand Firm

Good evening! Friday blog! This image popped up in my memories! I think it’s worth touching the subject again! Denny seemed to have a rough spot today and now he is good! Parkinson’s moods are hard to keep up with! Some of you might think that I am stressed or anxious everyday! I am not! I believe going through addiction therapy, gave me the right tools to take care of those negative things! I choose to use them! I have a big bag everyday filled with my positive go to’s! I am still at Otterbein with Denny! Want to get this done before I leave! I have several cookies to finish! For those of you that do not know, I am an addict! My choices were casino and scratch off’s! Gambling addict! No different than an alcoholic, a drug addict, food and people! Yes you can be addicted to a person! Food, you cannot go without, have to find balance! It’s awful! It controlled every part of me! Bus to Windsor was my favorite! Mind you, it’s not that close! When I could not soothe myself with food anymore, the gambling really got out of control! It started to affect me mentally and physically! I had quite the juggling act going on! Long story short, I banned myself from all casinos, life long ban! That helped, I relapsed 3 times in 2 years! January 3rd, 2016 I gave it up, family supported me, I entered recovery therapy! Best thing I have ever done! It got me through a lot of hurdles! Why am I telling this again, because, what we are going through could become a big trigger for some! In January, it will be 4 years! Best decision I ever made! Coping skills are important, as are positive behaviors! Two things I still need to work on, budgeting and cutting my hair! Small alongside of gambling, but definitely needs balance! Important to recognize! God forgave me and I forgave myself! That was tough! I am leaning on Him heavily! God is good! Be good to yourself, you are worth it! I am heading out! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️