Crying Clouds

Good evening! Friday blog! I am late tonight! You cannot see the iPad when the tears won’t stop! Just being honest! I’m not ashamed of crying! I consider my tears to be healthy! And I am human! Tears, mental pain! They are God given emotions! They have there proper place! Do you ever just sit and watch the rain? The way it spatters on the pavement! I never say God is crying, there are no tears in Heaven! So, when the clouds cannot hold it anymore, it just bursts with rain-tears! The past couple of days, Denny has had some very good moments and sometimes, some different moments! It’s not his fault! Yesterday, we were both young, time slipped through our fingers quickly! Never once did I think about a disease taking its toll on him! I wish I could carry some of his burdens! I know God is with us! After our good nights, I can’t get to the car fast enough! My chest feels as if it’s going to burst when a sob hits me! I just sit there until it passes, I can’t drive like that! Then certain songs, break my heart into pieces! Approaching home, dry it up, can’t wait to hit the bedroom before the waves take me down again! I know God’s touch! Tomorrow morning I will wake by 5:00am, barring the rain, I will be out the door! And all of God’s beauty will take my breath away! Tears do not make you not believe, it makes me believe all the more! God dries me up until the next round! On a brighter note, Denny has been having some small amounts of very soft things! Today, chocolate pudding! When he takes a little, then there are exercises for his mouth and throat! All things, he and I took for granted! So the clouds are crying tonight and mine have passed also! I do feel better afterwards! Grab your loved ones, with big hugs and kisses! Goodnight! Thanks for letting me cry on your shoulders! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️