A Grieving Process

Good evening! Sunday blog! When one is at a loss for words! When nothing, no matter how you try to rationalize it, makes sense! When you can’t ask why, because I do not question God! But, I feel I am grieving something everyday! Not just my losses, but, Denny’s also! Grief is a process! I am learning in group and therapy, we do not just grieve the loss of a loved one! Disease coming along and taking things away that you thought you would have forever! So many emotions flooding my mind, my heart, my soul! My Denny is the one I wish I could talk to about all of this! So every morning when I get up, I make a very conscious decision to choose happiness and joy! Otherwise, I do not know how I would get through a day! I have been at Otterbein everyday since September 6th! If I did not have an emotional plan with God leading me! I would be a bigger mess! God is foremost in me everyday! My front runner! He clears a healthy path for me to keep moving on! It’s ok, to not be ok! I just don’t want to stay there! Sometimes Denny sleeps off and on throughout a day! I mute the TV so I can chat with God! My comforter in all things! My God sustains me! He is my nourishment!Goodnight! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️