Confident Confidence

Good evening! Friday blog! Well, when Denny first got the tube, I thought how awful! I never thought about taking care of it! Everyone said it’s a skilled nursing thing! I was nervous! We are talking about life here! A man who just loved what he ate! Flavor, texture! Think about your favorite foods, all of the events in your life, where food is the main attraction! We couldn’t wait to get to the movies, fairs, amusements, holidays, weddings, anniversaries, birthdays, showers, vacations, picnics, poolside, even funerals! We took food for granted! Like we would have it forever! Plus, I am a baker! We live to eat food, when in fact, we should eat to live! I’m the first one to admit, I am guilty! It wasn’t just presented to us as a maybe, it was an emergency! Nobody should feel guilty for eating, it’s natural! But, if I let my mind go, I could let it destroy me! One of our very favorite things was gift cards for dinners out! Just second nature to stop for breakfast or lunch after appointments! Sunday dining after church! I absolutely love pizza, my favorite food for birthdays or anytime! Not a thimble of water or medications! All crushed! Everything goes through the tube, everything has to be changed every 24 hours! Bags, tubes! One bag water, one bag formula! All runs through the pump! Today I did the whole thing with the nurse, I did not make any mistakes! So practice doesn’t necessarily mean perfect, but it will build my confidence about taking care of something so serious! I am not trying to make anyone feel bad, I still eat, mom still eats! We do not eat in front of him! I love a beautiful table for meals! For now, I will just look at pictures and cherish the memories! Who would think food could be gone in an instant! We didn’t! God is good, even without food! We will feast on Gods word! He is the bread of life! Where true strength comes from! Be mindful of all your gifts from a God! Even a glass of water! I am praying for confidence, not just in tubing, but in all areas of life, especially where Denny’s needs are concerned! Goodnight! God bless!❤️🤗❤️🤗❤️