Remember Me

Good evening! Tuesday blog! I don’t like to use the word fear! But, it is a feeling and it comes calling whenever it wants! When Denny was first diagnosed, I was at the height of my gambling addiction! Now looking back since recovery, I was in denial for quite some time! I can’t even write some of these things, without crying! I knew Parkinson’s was a disease! I never knew anyone personally who had it! I remember Googling right away, I was so afraid and not right with the Lord! I needed to know what we were up against! Was it terminal? I was so relieved that it was not! But, it is different for each person, so, you cannot go on what anyone says! Then I read brain disease! What? I thought it was a muscular disease! Then, there is the really ugly word! Dementia! It’s not bad yet, it also is different everyday! What he remembered or did today, might be different the next day! It is not a kind disease by any standard! Thank you Lord for your never ending touch on our lives! So back to the fear word! I don’t live in fear but, sometimes I am fearful! My biggest fear, that we will wake up and he does not know me! I cannot even conceive how badly that would hurt! Just the thought of it, tears me up! When we talk and the I love you’s are said, he tells me to remember that! Like I could forget our story! In my mind our story is wonderful! We overcame so much pain and hurt! I will remember us for both of us! I know your name, Denny Reed! Goodnight! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️