Good evening! Tuesday blog! Yes! I love those three! I think about it a lot! I tell Denny and mom, don’t talk about yourself like that! You are insulting God! To get through any kind of recovery, you have to work on yourself! You cannot go through all of the work it takes to truly clean out all of the ugliness you have been hiding behind and then call yourself a dummy! Do not keep falling into the pity pit! You would not believe the things I use to say to myself! I will say it again, it is hard being a spouse and caregiver! Sometimes you say the wrong thing, that’s when you need to love yourself the most! Talk to yourself! Be a comforting friend to yourself! We are our own worst enemies! Talk to yourself, be kind to yourself! You might have a rough road to navigate! Who is going to give me a pep talk, when I am standing here crying, maybe I don’t even know why I am crying! Comfort in these areas do not come from Denny anymore! Sometimes you need a hug! I talk to myself, I answer myself to! Whatever I need! God and I have good things to say to one another! His words and promises to me and you are profound! God helps me in all of these areas! I use to be pretty hard on myself with ugly words! How is your light going to shine for others, if you can’t speak nicely to yourself! I do plenty of wrong in a day, time for a pep talk from me to me! Most of my life, I felt like a stupid dummy! Not true!!!!!! I love all of the things I can do! Recovery helped me love me and forgive me! Know one has to like me or love me! Those are facts! God has so much more to say about me! My feelings about myself did not change overnight! It was baby steps! One thing at a time! Stop beating yourself up over the past! What good does it do? I visit all of the feelings I have had over the years! It’s ok to do that! But, I do not stay there long! I am not that scared child that I use to be! The old Marilyn was very sad! Happiness is a choice! I am not looking for praise! You only have one life, live it well and be kind to yourself first! Put on a smile and be your best version of you! God loves you right where you are! Amen! Goodnight! God bless!❤️🤗🎄🤗❤️
Marilyn’s Heart 