Misplaced Greif

Good evening! Tuesday blog! Today is the anniversary of my fathers passing! It is still painful! I was not mentally well when he passed! I certainly was not prepared for the grief it brought with it! I did not know what wonderful things I had with my father, or the sacrifices he made for his family until he was gone! I was suppose to be a Christian! I had accepted Christ quite awhile back! Old wounds don’t heal unless they are cleaned out! Healing starts on the inside! My pain ran deep! My dad passed 1/14/2005! I turned to food for comfort! Over a 5 year period I packed on 75 lbs! One day I woke up and I was 234! I am short! My weight and eating habits were all done out of pain! I took care of the weight with a gastric bypass, but I did not clean out my wounds! I looked in the mirror everyday, I did not know her! But, I knew I hated her! She made herself miserable with all kinds of excuses! When I couldn’t have food anymore, I moved onto gambling! Most of you know my story! I finally got proper help! Addictive personality! Had I not got help starting with my weight, I was convinced my life was over just sitting in a lazy boy chair everyday! Not the life I thought about as a child! Now after therapy, everything has a brand new light shining on all things! My whole world opened in brand new ways! I saw my dads pain in a whole new light! I learned there are two ways to look at and take care of everything that has ever touched my life and yours! You have to want it and put in the work! Healing did not fall in my lap! I would never be able to get through any of that healing without my Lord, Jesus! He gets all of the glory, always! I do know now and believe, that God took special care of me, so I could take special care of Denny! All things work together for good! Gods words for us! Believe it! Joy and happiness are two choices I make every morning! They are choices! Anyone can choose them! When I get up, I look in the mirror, I say, good morning Lord, what wonderful plans do you have for me today! God says, my plan for you is still sleeping in the other room! God and I take care of Denny! I rest in both of them! God first! Thank you Jesus! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️