Delusional Love

Good evening! Monday blog! I know the title does not sound nice! So, let some of us reach way back in the memory bank! Then, all of you new fall in lovers and newlyweds! I put myself first in that scenario! Not many, when you fall in love and you just know, nobody thinks of illness and the down and dirty side of some care giving! When I was a teenager, all I thought about was, who is going to fall for me, buy me special flowers, candy, cologne, jewelry, big fancy house, with a brand new car! Exotic vacations! We would just gaze at each other whispering sweet nothings, how I will never hurt you! Making such lofty promises, that know one would be able to keep up! I was only 17, when I married, right out of school! Let’s just say, he broke a lot of promises! I was 22 when I met Denny, ahhhhh those giddy feelings of real love all over again! I thought love meant, know one would hurt me again! And all of the material love things I mentioned, Denny did give me all of that! He bought me a big house, just not the fancy kind! Everything was always beautifully wrapped! I did a lot for Denny too, but I was selfish, I wanted more! Never satisfied with life! You can fill a house with many things, you still won’t really know, until you can back up all of the pretty words you promised to say forever! Our love and marriage has been tested, over and over in many ways! Now, me at 67 and Denny at 76! We finally know what real love and commitment is all about! What if relationships and marriage came in reverse! What if you saw what caregiving entails, for who knows how long! What if you saw your bedroom turned into a hospital room, would you stay or walk away! People have walked away from marriage for a lot less! I know that, because I did it! So now, I thank God for setting me straight on love and commitment! I don’t see our bedroom anymore in romantic fashion! I see the one and only, precious gift that has been mine for 42 years! The moral of this love story, grab it all right now, do it all right now, before time runs out! Taking care of Denny like this is my choice! I have learned a lot along this path! This is the way I spell love now! For those of you that think you might not be able to do such things, God has become my everything along this walk! I know at the end of this journey, God will still be with me, giving me a new strength, a new purpose! I have definitions for the letters in the word love! L=loyalty. O=overcomer. V=victorious. E=eternal! My God, is a mighty God and He will see me through! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️