Choose Joy Through Tears

Good evening! Saturday blog! It’s OK to cry, even when you can’t see through the tears, you can still choose JOY and HAPPINESS! I need to choose these things! My tears might last forever! I cannot, I will not, go backwards! Today was good! Got all funeral things put away, our daughter from Myrtle Beach is leaving tomorrow! Sad! She is flying very early in the morning! Her husband drove home! Prayers! Then Mom and I went to Porkys with family! I just love their pizza, but, I love family more! My cousins are so supportive! One cousin and his daughter made the trip driving from Myrtle Beach themselves! I hate saying goodbye! At any given moment today tears would start! I’m not afraid to cry, I just cannot stay there! 45 years of everything from young smiles, sparkles in your eyes, pounding hearts, laughter at everything, just to hear each other, hands on each other’s cheeks, just to stare in each other’s eyes, holding hands, just so skin touches! Babies, toddlers, teenagers! That’s a wide range of age! All the way to the last heartbeat! How did that happen? Yesterday, we were young! Then I blinked and the road became bumpy, stormy, scary, lonely, fearful! Then gone, just like that! As I grew stronger physically, mentally and spiritually, he became sicker! Sitting in this bedroom everyday together, we fell in love all over again on so many different levels! I couldn’t get enough of looking at him, watching him, looking at his beautiful blue eyes grow more tired and weary until they closed! My heartache today hurts, it will pass! Because I let go of it and see my Denny in a different scene in heaven! A heavenly body! Because God is good and His promises are true! Released from all that took him down and away from us! So, when the tears start, I only let sorrow stay a little while! A little bit of everything, can only stay a little while! Balance! Thank you for your prayers! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️