Step Back

Good evening! Friday blog! Everything I have gone through, every bad choice I have made, not considering consequences, constantly playing the victim card, manipulating people for my own whatever’s, chasing rainbows that cannot be caught! You get the picture! It is only by the GRACE of GOD that I am even living and breathing! My family is nothing short of miraculous! Our children, our grandchildren, are my biggest and greatest cheerleaders! They said, mom you can do it, and so I have! I truly do not know how I would have gotten through all of this pain, if it was not for them! Life is all about choices! Everything we think about, or look at, are things to choose! During my recovery path, I started to put positive things in my life! As Denny’s illness progressed, I knew I would need to call on all of the positives I started! If I wanted to stay sane! So God and I put together a plan! No matter how painful it became, I would continue all of the healthy mental and physical things I had! My mind was already set on what I would do when Denny passed and went to heaven! God gave me new strength in all areas! My Bible, my journaling, my blogging, my walking, my sewing, my baking, scrapbooking! These things are not passing hobbies! They are my choices, for my mind, my life, my health! God willing! Sometimes Denny wanted me to read what I was writing to him! He thought they sounded good! Sometimes he fell asleep before I finished! Dear God I miss him so much! So everyday I put together a plan, a rough graph of my day! Step back, give yourself a pep talk! You are worth it! I do it everyday! I hate Parkinson’s and what it does to lives! I do not hate life! Two ways to choose! Praise God for a free will to choose! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️