Good evening! Sunday blog! My days are so messed up! The only normal going on, is walking! I wrote out a new schedule this morning, just to stay on top of things! Tomorrow will be two months already! I can’t even wrap my mind around that! I miss him so! It doesn’t matter what I am thinking about, looking at, or doing! I see Denny in all of it! In April it will be one whole year since I started writing! I have been wanting to do a poem for and about that last week of his life! I just could not do it, until today!
I know Jesus hand was on Denny from the start, Jesus knew in 2020 we would have to part! But oh, my aching heart! Seven years you struggled, that’s a very long time! I didn’t want to let you go, after all, you were mine! God had very different plans, as you grew weaker, I grew stronger, then Jesus took you from my hands! Many came to say goodbye, love surrounded your bed! Our love could not stop that last breath, when the angels came instead! Seven years just flew away, like sand in an hour glass, as we all held you in our arms, it was time to see you pass! That last heartbeat, when you took your last breath, now all I feel, is like I’m crying to death! All that has transpired since then, has become a reality, I knew all along I couldn’t choose, self pity! Denny would not want that for anyone of us, he only wanted us to have great faith, because Jesus is who we trust! As hard as it is, to face each new day, tomorrow is two months already, since you went away! I love you forever, I miss you even more, it just has to stay this way, till Jesus knocks at my door!
Marilyn’s Heart 