Awareness

Good evening! Monday blog! April is Parkinson’s Awareness Month! Knowledge or perception of a situation or fact! Concerned about and well-informed! I still have a lot to learn! I know a couple of people that passed and a couple of people who are facing the outcome! I did not know much about it! I started reading, took him to a seminar, really I took him to anything that would keep him moving! If you are not already an active person, it will be hard to jump on it, after the diagnosis! So, Denny became very ill mentally in 2013! I now believe, that Parkinson’s was also the culprit! A lot can happen when your dopamine is depleted from your brain, and nothing good! He was diagnosed in 2014, it did not take long for all of us to realize, that this was going to be a big challenge! Looking back, I think he started progressing mind wise in 2013! Issues with driving, losing things, hiding things! It’s not a funny thing! The person struggling does not realize the behavior he is displaying! Denial, anger, grief over the person suffering, trying to understand it all! Besides the dopamine, we noticed a tremor in his thumb! I could have read a thousand books, you could not have prepared me-us for what we would face! But, you have to keep moving, everyone’s Parkinson’s is different! I am no expert! I just know what I witnessed! Some people have lived with it for 20 years, before they reach what stages Denny seemed to advance to quickly! When the feeding tube went in, in August, we went to the neurologist , I asked what stage is Denny at? He did not look at me, but said, he is pretty advanced! Not the greatest answer, but I felt we were in for a rough ride! You all know the rest! Almost six months! I did not know this illness was a brain disease, I thought it was muscular! I was glad when I found out it was not terminal! But, the advancement of it, did not spare us from suffering! It’s a horrible disease, that robs the person and their family! This has all been so hard! Every Monday is like living it again! I cannot imagine where this would be, if we did not know God! God is with me when I cry at night, like right now! God is my sleep, God is my coffee! I will not pull my hand from Him! He is my very being, into my soul! Denny left, but Gods strength will see us through! There is no other way! Amen! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️