Tug Of War

Good evening! Sunday blog! I won’t lie! I have been struggling all day! My days are running together like a blur! It’s awful! I need to set up a schedule for myself! I only feel like a human at the park, when walking! I will not blame God as we ride this out! I need some serious Face Timing with family! I’m still grieving and I can’t see anyone! My mind and my heart are constantly struggling! When the the crying stops, I am a positive thinker again! I tell myself, God has His reasons for this and for you to be alone! It’s as simple as that! That’s the tug of war going on in me! I have my Zoom all set up and ready to go! Tomorrow morning at 9:00am, group therapy! Grief Share is starting this week on Zoom! Just telling all of you about it, makes me better! Thank you! This is a highlight for me, talking about life and what we are handed everyday! How do we handle it? Life is a struggle all by itself! Throw in a crisis that no one understands! Enough to rock anyone’s boat! It does not help that tomorrow is 9 weeks already! My heart and my mind are both tormented with missing him! The physical and mental are also a constant tug of war! I did not sleep good again! That’s never good for the mind! But still with all of this pain and missing him, that will never go away! God is and will remain my one constant in all things! He is the rock for us to hang onto, no matter how rough the ride gets! Now for some sleep, please! Good night! God bless! See the cloud above Denny’s head? It’s a heart!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️