You Touched My Soul

Good evening! Thursday blog! I am feeling especially smart this evening! I am all about old dogs learning new tricks! I had Grief Share from my own room tonight, on Zoom! How wonderful technology is! Actually conversing with our leader, and others from the group! Soooooo cool! In just that short amount of time, I know I am moving in the right direction! A little Denny this evening! Almost 10 years older than I, I had never met anyone quite like him! He had a sweet shyness about him! Like a school boy! It worked, it won me over! Our life was not perfect in many ways, I have mentioned we are both bipolar and not diagnosed yet! Let your imagination go on that one! I am not dishonoring him in anyway! I want what we had and overcame, to help others who struggle! Our pain alone and our pain together was strong, but our love and staying committed was stronger! No doubt in my mind, we were meant to be! I do believe in fairytales! The kind that God writes! Once we really let go of ourselves! I will never stop saying how much I loved him and miss him! Every picture I look at of him, transports me to that time in our life! Wether good or bad, I think about us being over comers! We had a lot of adversity in our own selves and together in our marriage! I only think of him with goodness! He was such a giver! Just like my dad was! I am the blessed one, to have had him and known him! Just his presence filled a room! He was so appreciative of everything! I see him in every sunrise! I see him in sunsets! Every love song I hear, it’s about him! I am lost in Denny! I don’t mind at all! I look for him in everything! This Sunday will be hard! I am cooking a small scale dinner for mom and I! I will think of him with every bite! I am making a lemon merengue pie, mom and I both like, but Denny’s favorite! Above all I miss our devotions together, and sitting in church holding his hand! I will miss my family Sunday! Keeping them safe and germ free is a high priority! He loved my cooking and baking! I miss giving it to him! I will remember his appreciation of food! He also loved my smile! I will keep smiling for him and all he stands for in our life! I will not live in doom and gloom! Crying is a normal reaction to grief! God keep wiping my tears! Please appreciate what you have this Easter and the empty tomb! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️