Four Months Of Tears

Good evening. Monday blog. Well here we are, at another Monday. I have not had one day without tears! Sometimes, in the early morning. I usually have a good cry before I write. I always wonder, how much liquid would that be! I am trying really hard to keep up with all of my things to stay busy! Sometimes my mind just stops, and I cry like it was just yesterday. Most of the time, it feels like grief and overwhelming sorrow going through my veins. This could not have been explained to me. For one, no two people are alike. When God took him, it felt like someone robbed me of my life and my breath! I only remember our daughter saying breathe! Even now, 4 months, when a sob hits me, it takes my breath away! It isn’t normal crying! I do like my busy days, when my mind is occupied. Before reality comes back. Having all social life disappear did not help. I don’t want to sound like a whiner! We are all in the same boat! In it together! Wednesday evening I am joining a virtual bereavement group, through hospice, for spouses! I just do not want to get stuck. As I always say, if not for God, I would be a mess! That is my bright spot! God does reveal Himself to me every morning! My walk with God is so much stronger. As fast as crying starts, it stops just as fast, God says carry on! That’s it, “GOD” He is the answer to everything! I have not forgotten that. After all He did say, I will wipe every tear from their eyes! Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️