Good evening. Tuesday blog. First, a little about yesterday. Not as big as Easter, Thanksgiving or Christmas, but still, a first Memorial Day without Denny and, and it was another without kids and grandkids! I am not complaining, I understand, especially with my moms age and our grandchildren! I felt, that I always tried to make it special on Butler St. I miss that old house that held just about every memory you could have or think of! Mom and I take care of each other. So, I was not going to do any remembering with food, for yesterday! Holidays have always been a big deal with food! May was always time to open the pool! Denny made our water look like a sparkling lake! On the spur, I put together a small picnic for mom and I! My cousin across the field came over, as well as my sister and husband! We had all the fixings, just small scale. And we had laughter, better for you than food! Still walking every morning with my daughter! If you have noticed her cute picture everyday! After cleanup, my son pulled in the driveway, with my grandsons! Talked from a distance and blew kisses! My kids and holiday food! Blessings! Last evening I was so tired! Had my therapist this morning on FaceTime! Love that technology! Then my B-12 shot! Really trying to stay on top of all of my health needs! God is my helper, all the way! I started setting my phone alarm for afternoon prayer! Reminders are good! I have had a lot of stepping stones in my life! I’m sure at the time, I thought they were road blocks. Every little detail since Denny’s illness and passing, I could use as big stumbling blocks, or, each one a small stepping stone, one step at a time! I like the term baby steps also! I know what severe depression feels like! I don’t and won’t give myself that option! I don’t want to feel as if I can’t go on! Because it’s not true! I get up, I stay up. Sometimes a nap, but never lay in bed all morning! These things are not wrong, I just won’t give into it! A lot of memories have been popping up on FB! It’s hard to see Denny sitting at the table, that empty chair, then I remember, he loved pancakes and that’s what he was eating! Big stones, little stones! It’s all in how you approach it and handle it! I could have cried all day, but I chose to enjoy the holiday in spite of our circumstances! If I had been the only person here yesterday, I still would have made that food! The world did not stop spinning when Denny took his last breathe. It felt like it. Life will not stop either! The circle of life has great meaning! I hope you all had a meaningful day! Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Marilyn’s Heart 