The Winds Of Change

Good evening. Saturday blog! The winds of change are upon us and all around us. I don’t listen to the news very often. It’s like a broken record, only thing that changes, are the number of lives it keeps taking! Denny and I unfortunately had a lot of changes in our life, before, after, and during our marriage. One thing remained through all of our life, love. Trust was broken and ruined, more than once. We were both messed up, from divorce. Years later, both bipolar, addictions. I am a recovered gambling addict. As Denny’s diagnosis became a reality, in the physical, mine became a reality, in the mental. No cure for Parkinson’s. I needed to get my act together. Winds of change all around us! Going to the addiction Center downtown and group therapy with all addictions, was a real eye opener! Best thing I have ever done. We do group now on Zoom! One on one therapy, on the phone, really just to touch base. I am 5 years without gambling. I changed a lot, with Gods help, in a short space of time. So, one of my changes was getting going on exercise. August 15th will be my 5th walking anniversary. I do put myself in the serious walking category! I can do 6 miles almost everyday, if I want to. So, I had a goal in the city, I wanted a 50 mile week. I only reached 48, yes I was disappointed, but not a failure! I am ready to try it again. Tomorrow is the starting day. I am excited. It’s never to late to incorporate new things. Walking gives me great benefits in a lot of medical areas! I just love it. Winds of change does not stop. I am so thankful for healthy coping skills that I am still learning. In the past 10 years, Denny and I had 7 major surgeries between us, 4 were joint replacement, 1, a gastric bypass for me, he had numerous hospital and rehab stays. We packed up our 5 bedroom, city home, came back to my childhood 2 bedroom home. I have lost 115 lbs. our daughter married in that time frame. And my Denny just passed away in January. Parkinson’s for 7 years. Praise God and coping skills. That’s a lot of 10’s on the stress scale. I’m sure I left somethings out! Life is full of change, you learn to cope or drown. Grief and pain over losing Denny to such an awful disease, is constant. I’m going forward not backward. Thank you so much for listening. Good night. God bless. ❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️