Missing You Is Not Easy

Good evening. Thursday blog. What does missing a person mean? What happened to absence makes the heart grow fonder. That’s a lie. I tell my head every right thing everyday. It’s my heart that is not cooperating. How does the heart follow the mind or do I have it backwards? I made a list, pros and cons of Grief. That sounds like a book. I don’t think I’m going to get any better books than the two I have. Heartbroken, Healing From The Loss Of A Spouse and Transcending Loss. I am not done with that one yet. A quote from the book, Death doesn’t end the relationship, it simply forges a new type of relationship—one based not on physical presence but on memory, spirit and love……. Doesn’t that make perfect sense? It does. I just have to keep urging my heart to go in the right direction. I don’t want to skip any of the steps that move in the right way to healthy grief. So, books, journals, classes, groups, conversation with other widows. It’s hard to tell myself these things every minute. Sometimes I feel like I’m turning my back on him. I know those are lies, but they creep in anyway. Above all, staying in the word brings great hope for the day that I will see him again. Strong and disciplined. I feel like I am whining every night, I’m not. These words reinforce me everyday. I want to be strong and down the road an example when others come to that road! I hope that makes sense. I don’t want to be all over the map! On the positive side, another 7 miles this morning, I worked today, trying to stay on the healthy side of nutrition. These are pluses. Grief to be continued till I reach where I am supposed to be. Good night God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️