All About Stuff

Good evening. Sunday blog. How about it? We all have stuff going on. Stuff that is important to me, might mean 0 to you. It’s all about what a person has going on! We all have a lot on our plate and yet some of us can handle it as it comes and some cannot. I use to be part of the cannot. Now, I say I can, even if it is with a big question mark. Recovery taught me a lot back in 2016. I year I had not gambled. Now it’s 5 years. Yesterday was my 5 year anniversary for walking. These numbers are the longest I have stuck to anything. The benefits of changing lifestyle, turning negatives to positives! In the beginning I was fearful. I would think, what’s going to happen if Denny passes. Will I relapse, will I go off of the deep end? My therapist said the other day, that I am an inspiration! I said, that’s funny, that’s how I think of you. Talk about a changed life. I needed to clean up my life. Every time I added a positive, a negative had to go. Gambling had taken over my life. Everyone knew it, in my family, except me. I say this all the time, jokingly, but I mean it. Do not wait until you are 63 to clean up your life and to grow up. I am thankful for so much. Not enough space here to list it all. I can say this even while grieving. My daughter told me yesterday, I was having flashbacks, tears taking me down. She reminded me when that happens I need to replace it right away with a happy time and a happy memory. It’s good to be reminded. It’s good to know that God is my refuge and He pulled me out of the pit. Not so I could fall back in. Don’t be afraid to tell your loved ones if you are having a rough time. Don’t go it alone. Reach out, you are loved by family and friends. If you are hurting, we are hurting with you. It’s nice to grow a little differently every day. 21 days to form a new habit. Just start picking and choosing. It will happen. You have to want it, and I do. God is always good. Thanks for listening. Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️