Busy……..Grief

Good evening. Thursday blog. I walked this morning, I worked today, got a bite to eat, stopped for some groceries, and went to my grandsons football game. The other grandson was away for soccer. I do love being able to do all and get it done. Smile, laugh, good conversation. All of these great, but not healing. Not yet anyway. I fall apart every night, while my mind is thinking of all of the wonderful things I’m doing. I feel like two people. One wants to be normal and one wants to hide. Grief is very confusing! I’ll just keep moving forward. Trying to make sense of it all, but yet knowing it all. Just keep giving it to God, I say it over and over. My mind still knows all of the right things to do, at night, my heart takes over and breaks again! I don’t think I am whining, I am hurting. Lord please! Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️