What In The World

Good evening. Friday blog. In these very uncertain times, sometimes we don’t think before we act. I ask myself that every day, What In The World. I have no answer. Only God holds the answers to all of these mysteries. I try to wait patiently. That is a tall order when it hurts so much. Some days are definitely better than others. Really every day is good, if you are giving it all to God! As we should. 39 weeks out, I thought Grief would take on a different feeling! It’s every bit as painful. Crying is still crying. Hurting still hurts. I am able to dry it up and keep moving. Walking is certainly my go to, to give me strength in my low times! I need to get some warm clothing. I plan on walking all winter. Which has been my goal every year! A little road trip to Napoleon today, shake and tea always at the nutrition shop. The best part, laughter all the way with my daughter. I miss my kids so much, and laughter in our Butler St. house! Denny had such a hardy laugh. Right from the belly. Life is still good, God is still good, it’s just different. I am going to say it again, no matter what your age, if you have a spouse wrap your arms around them tight, don’t let go. One of you will be taken at some point in time. Precious time is what I miss! There is no one that can come close to what Denny was to me. I feel so lost without him, again, I know that is not true. Some days I feel like I am coming apart at the seems. All feelings. Feelings get in the way. No one can prepare you for this kind of hurt! And yet, my life is good. I’m breathing, I survived COVID-19. I believe with all my heart, it’s because I am in good shape! My moms in good shape, same house, she did not get it. So, God is good and I do not deserve what He did at Calvary for me, only me. Thank you Jesus for letting me whine once again. Your shoulders are so big! I love you! I miss you Denny until I am blind with it. Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️