Good evening. Tuesday January 26, 2020 and Wednesday January 27, 2020 blog! I cannot stop saying it. One whole year. I did not think it even possible. Yet, here we are. 2:00am January 25th to 4:10pm January 27th. Roughly 60 hours of suffering all the way around. Longest 3 days ever! Having your ear on the chest of the one you loved for 45 years, waiting for their heart to stop beating. I wanted mine to stop, time stood still. I knew his journey was complete when I looked at his face. All of that pain and suffering was gone in an instant, and ours of grief was just beginning. Going and taking care of every detail to honor our loved one. At the end you wonder how you got through it all. For me, it’s God. I truly am a train wreck without “HIM!” I will be completely honest tonight. I was a train wreck today. Crying started as soon as I opened my eyes at 3:00am! As my morning went on with weather and constant thoughts of Denny. I took my grandson to practice, he said my day was like a domino effect. One thing just kept knocking another thing over. At the moment I’m still crying. Off and on all day. I feel drained! Like it just happened yesterday. It is the anniversary timing. I won’t stay this way. I do sleep in the same room that it all took place in. I would not change it. I can feel whatever way I want in here! No one looking. One more day to go. I do not want to be blindsided again. I’ll be spending the day with Lukey, showing him pictures and telling him about his great papa Reed! Thank you all for your prayers and support always, for our family! Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Marilyn’s Heart 