Celebrate Recovery

Good evening. Thursday blog! I was talking to my granddaughter today, I have been so wrapped up in thinking about Denny and his death anniversary date that I forgot all about my own special anniversary. January 3rd, 2016, I was one year clean, this past January 3rd, 2021, I am six years clean from gambling addiction! Am I proud that? You better believe it. For those of you that cannot even imagine how that could happen. It’s called living a lie. I do not have a problem with anybody doing what they enjoy. When it consumes you and nothing else, including people matters to you except gambling, you have a problem. No, I did not seek help on my own. Denny was already ill and I was gone way to much. He expressed his concern to our daughter. When I say I became stronger as Denny illness advanced, it is because of recovery and the hard work I put in to be the right kind of wife and the best caregiver. Recovery is the best thing I have ever done for myself, besides excepting Jesus. I rededicated my life to Jesus March 2016. That is also how and why I started cleaning houses, to pay back debt that I had created! I did not think it was possible to stop. My therapist was brand new, an addict himself. He started the gambling recovery program. I was the first one to enter, finish, stay in, complete and still clean to this day. I am still in the program and still talk to that therapist. COVID took care of our group, that I miss very much. I tell everyone, don’t wait until you are 63 to clean up your act! It is to late when you are dead. So, my poetry, my blogging, my journaling, my walking, are all positive behaviors I put in place of all of the negatives. I soon found out, my whole life, I was just swapping one addiction for another. I am not perfect and will never be. I choose a positive life and not let anything take me backwards, including losing my husband! God is good! My strength comes from Him, do not ever think you are not worth it, you are! Nothing wrong with having fun, do not let it take over your life. I thank and praise God for a daughter that was not afraid to use tough love on her mom, and stand up for her dad. Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️