Denny…..Remember When

Good evening. Tuesday blog. May 17th,1975! Denny Reed asked me to marry him. Not in the traditional way. We jumped in the car, went to Miracle Mile Shopping Center and left with rings! It was 2 years before we married. We made the Ruby, not the Gold! I cannot say enough about making every moment count for all memories. It all went by so fast. I swear, in a blink, it was gone. Just typing these words brings tears. I cried as I wrote each poem two years ago. Each one representing, my life, our life and the end of Denny’s. I just mailed those, the last part, for the end of the book! Every time I read something about us, it takes me back a notch. I have accepted that grief will never end, it’s just changing. Always tears no matter my thoughts! Past, present and future! Only God knows! His timing is perfect! Sometimes I can stare at his picture, even talk to him, sometimes I just sob and get it over with. Even for divorced people, you owe it to your children to make peace. Divorce does not take love away from your children. I knew a long time ago that Denny’s ex wife would be with us at the funeral, and her family. They were very respectful. I told her at the dinner, I know you loved him too. I have an ex husband! I am not sorry I was married to him. I have a wonderful, loving and handsome son. But Denny became his real father. Denny truly had a heart of gold. He was such a giver! We all miss him in our own way. Take time, precious time, to stop and smell your roses. I don’t care if you are 80, if you are breathing, you have time! I started to grow up at 63! Gods hand is on my life. He is my compass and I still stumble. Important, I am not giving up, I will not be defeated and I am not going backwards. Taking care of Denny with God, has given me strength I did not know I had. Don’t sell yourself short! Let go and let God! Enjoy your evening! Goodnight God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️