Good evening! Saturday blog! I am not whining. But, working almost everyday cleaning houses. I love it. Lukey Tuesday. If someone wants baking in between, I do not like to say no and of course it is extra income. Bills did not stop when Denny’s life did. With the things I have to do, I am learning how to do, every step of the way. Life does not stop. In between all of my wanting to learn to be a responsible adult. That does not happen overnight. In between all of that life, grief comes calling whenever it wants to. That takes time to handle properly and in a healthy way. My two day getaway was wonderful. Great room and bed, great food and most and best of all, great company with my family and their family on the other side. To me, we are all family and connected! My first wedding since Denny passed, it was rough. Ave Maria was sung by our granddaughter at Denny’s funeral and at this wedding. I love the song, but I lost it. That’s why I love waterproof mascara. I just want to be in a better place with myself. Accept what cannot be changed. To not just love my family, but to love and be lovable. To love all of mankind. I want to keep smiling no matter what I face. In the end, I want to leave this world with grace and the name of Jesus on my lips. Denny’s passing and how it was handled by him and our love surrounding him, spoke loudly to all of us. I learned a lot in that 7 years. I want to keep on learning. I do handle a lot in a day. I still believe in looking and tackling one thing as it comes. We all know when we look at the whole picture it is overwhelming! There really is two ways to handle everything, including death. Since we do not know how we are leaving this world, we need to be walking and talking in grace. None of us is perfect. I have had to live with me a long time. I know I am not. God is the only judge, we have no right what so ever to look down our nose at anyone. Someone please correct me if I do. I want to see only beauty in all humanity and living creatures. If we keep our eyes and ears open, we might learn something. I do not want my head in the sand, even if it hurts, and I have known pain. I want to grab it and learn. Just some food for thought tonight. Tomorrow, I know Sunday is the day of rest. Sometimes it cannot be avoided. At the moment, Saturday is my down day. Tomorrow my day will start at 4:00am, walking 4 miles at 5:00am, church at 9:00am, cleaning a business at 10:30am, cleaning another business at 3:00pm, home by 8:00pm. No work on Monday! I am so thankful for my health. In the palm of Gods hand, that’s where I want to be and stay. When I am long gone, I would like my great grandson to remember how I danced around the kitchen with him. I want him to tell his family, she did that because she changed herself with the help from God. His grace is sufficient for even me, a sinner like me! I love all of my family so much. I am blessed! Amen! Goodnight. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Marilyn’s Heart 