If Only I Had Known…………

Good evening! Saturday night blog! My last two days have been very teary! With my 50th Reunion already in the past! Time moving so fast. There are times I have to pull off of the road and just let the tears run its course. I think by now everyone knows or has heard of Casting Crowns hit song, “Scars In Heaven” I love that song! If you have not heard, pull it up on your device! It is worth the listen. We all have regrets after someone is gone, taken, way to soon. It will be 2 years in January that Denny has been gone. I cannot even wrap my mind around that. But, the song, if we had known, we would stay a little longer, hold on a little tighter. We did all of that, but, when their gone, it doesn’t seem like it was enough. That song just tears at my heart. In one aspect, it gives me peace. Another aspect, it tears my heart out. No time left. Once their eyes close for all of eternity……………Sometimes I struggle trying to remember what our last words were before we fell asleep, that Friday evening of 1/24/20. I know for sure, good night, I love you and get some sleep. I hope my story tonight can help someone. Some are struggling through that kind of pain right now! Take the time right now. Tomorrow is not promised, it is not a given. I only see his blue eyes in pictures, forever in a frame. In the blink of an eye, they can be gone. But, you have to hold onto the peace, that passes all understanding. Denny had deep scars that never went away, until he reached heaven. No more pain, mental or physical. The song is a great reminder to take extra special time with loved ones while they are here. The song also says, once Jesus touches you, no more scars, only His. Denny slipped into a coma that night. He kept breathing for 60 hours after I woke that night. Our prayer was please let him hear everything we are saying. Prayers, music, bible verses and singing. Each one of us having alone time with him, so each one of us could get some rest. I know the grief will never go away or be gone. It’s just a different, maybe less. But, it does come calling whenever it wants to. We are all going to face something someday. We do not get to pick or choose. It is all in Gods hands. Take that special time. You won’t pass that way again. For me that can only happen with my Lord, Jesus! That which did not break me, has made me stronger. Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️