Good evening! Monday night blog! I have been in a very long drought! It has been like someone turned me off and I didn’t know how to get back on. My daughter was concerned, my short term memory has been suffering. I went to the Dr. told him everything. He was not that concerned. Of course age was mentioned first, then the grief process, is still going on. I work outside the home now, I have a lot on my plate. It is what it is. I will not be defeated. There is a lot of good going on, on my plate. Problem gambling sometime back, was using actors to reach out to problem gamblers. It was decided that real people with real recovery should shoot video commercials. I was one of the invited. On Wednesday, the 2nd of March, I treated myself to hair, mani and pedi. On Thursday the 3rd was the shoot. It was so cool. They all laughed and said her hair is perfect, we only have to do her make up. LOL! They took a lot of pictures, outside also. Commercials will air in April! My book is heading to publication this week. The front and back cover design is finished. Sometimes I look in the mirror and wonder to myself, girl, you have been through a lot. I’m still smiling, I still cry, it still hurts. Sometimes I say, to God and myself, I can’t believe I don’t have a husband anymore, I don’t have our house anymore, where I cooked and baked for all holidays and Denny loved it, our yard where I planted flowers, our pool, where we had parties and summer fun. I miss it all, and yet, I have overcome so much. I choose overcomer over survivor. A survivor is someone who suffers an attack and lives to tell about it. An overcomer is someone who suffers an attack, then rises up and defeats his attacker. 1.Survivors are victimized. Overcomer’s are victorious. 2. Survivors have wounds. Overcomer’s have scars. 3. Survivors are peace keepers. Overcomer’s are peacemakers. 4. Survivors go through the fire and live in constant reference to how they were burned. Overcomer’s go through the fire and don’t even smell of smoke. Are you an Overcomer? Choose life! Today is a good day to be an overcomer. Go after greater things, not only for yourself, but for your God! Bring others out of survival mode, to fight for more and inherit the promise of real life! Grief is not punishment, it is a God given feeling. Love lives on and it hurts, in a different way everyday! I am not a victim, I am a wife, and my husband was taken before me. I cannot tell all of you enough, appreciate what you have in front of you. It all can be taken in a a moment. Don’t leave your situation, learn how to overcome, be victorious with each other. If you don’t and one is taken quickly, the pain will feel like you can never overcome. That simply is not true. We all have the ability to rise above, if we want to. I wanted to and I still am. With God, all things are possible! With God I want the best version of me to continue. I am a better person for having been Dennys wife for 42 years! It is our story that I want to keep sharing. Denny and I are Overcomer’s in the midst of adversity. It made who we were together! Thank you God! Good night and God bless!🤗❤️🙏🏻❤️🤗
Marilyn’s Heart 