Good evening! Monday blog! As everything in life that touches us, who can know, who can be ready! Illness is one of the big ones! Physical or mental, it can hit you at a terrific speed! Like standing on a beach! You didn’t see the big wave coming! It did not announce itself! Pow! You …
Author Archives: Marilyn Bodi Reed
What’s In A Good Day
Good evening! Sunday blog! Remember, I do not like the word bad, to describe anything! I like to say a different day! We have had a lot of those lately! Too many! Today, surprise, a good day! Not perfect, but good! Denny woke up a couple times through the night! He was a little chatty! …
The Bucket List
Good evening! Saturday blog! Are you a lister? I am! I have lists for lists! Have to list, to do list, appointment list, holiday lists, medication lists, grocery lists, etc. Cross off as things go by or change and then, start over! I even have a list just for Denny! So many different things added …
Life’s Challenges
Good evening! Friday blog! I am learning more everyday about challenges that come our way and how we handle them! Sometimes one just comes out of nowhere, like illness, what Denny and I face everyday! Eating, and all that entails, mom and I, as our whole family, we have always enjoyed eating! We eat to …
Gods Got This
Good evening! Thursday blog! God is taking care of me! I know it! I don’t have to see it! I feel it, deep within me! I tell myself all day, Gods got this, don’t run ahead, it gets you into trouble every time! I was upset the other day, if you recall, about Denny’s system! …
Turn Back The Clock
Good evening! Wednesday blog! I know the clocks have all fallen back an hour! If I could change time, I would go way back to 1956! I was 4! Denny was 13 that year! Already a teenager! We lived in different worlds, for sure! If I had known him then, I would have looked up …
Eyes Of Faith
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Quick blog tonight! I placed our first order for formula since the first original! Seven cases was delivered when Denny came home! Placed an order on Sunday, eight cases came today! But, the feed and water system is run by a pump! Those bags are on back order, for weeks! Are …
What’s In A Vow
Good evening! Monday blog! When you are home with a sick spouse, all day, everyday, I am not complaining! You just have a lot of time to read, and in between everything else, you have a lot of thinking going on! It doesn’t matter if it’s all of our wonderful times or our worst times! …
The Day Of Rest
Good evening! Sunday blog! I believe in the day of rest! Most times anyway! Apples just would not stop calling me! So I took advantage of every minute! Our son has apple trees! When they produce, I get a big basket full! Dumplings! Today was the only free one! I did rest after, 12 pans …
Stop-Look Both Ways
Good evening! Saturday blog! I really try to not plan to far ahead of things! There is always two ways to go! Be rest assured, tomorrow has enough worry all by itself! I might not be here tomorrow! That’s the truth! Remember, my sons apples? I planned all week to make apple dumplings! Like I …
What A Wonderful World
Good evening! Friday blog! We took the Beagle for grooming, stopped by our granddaughters home, for a little visit with some goodies! Did a couple of errands, picked up doggie and home! Denny did very well today, until I had to get him in the house! My cousin helped me! Daughter and granddaughter stopped for …
I Miss You
Good evening! Thursday blog! I was happy to be able to squeeze in a walk, while a therapist was here!Only 20 minutes across the bean field! It felt wonderful! I am running out of hours that are in a day! 24 of them does not seem like enough! I am lucky these days if I …
Nothing Like A Drive!
Good evening! Wednesday blog! Denny went with me today on a little road trip to Bowling Green! My Dr. appointment! We use to go to Cincinnati a lot! My first baseball game ever! Being on I 75 South brings a lot of memories! We talked about trips that will not be! He has so many …
God Is Good
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I love these three words! You cannot say it any better! God has been good to me, when I did not know Him! Good to me after I met Him! Never have I ever deserved it! It’s a gift, it’s right there for the taking! You, do not have to do …
My Change Of Life
Good evening! Monday blog! 9 years out from Gastric Bypass surgery! Nov. 8, 2010! I have never been sorry that I took that route! Now, disappointed, yes I was! I realized even with surgery you have to make good, healthy choices! In the beginning, I melted like a stick of butter! I only lost 60 …
That One Special Person
Good evening! Sunday blog! You know what I’m talking about! Boys and girls, when we start school! Oh he’s so cute, oh she’s so cute! Then, the little notes!! As you pass through school there are many, many things that bring boys and girls together! Neighbors, riding the bus, sporting events, dances, classmates! Some find …
Sad Tonight
Good evening! Saturday blog! Just sad tonight! Mental anguish is so hard! His and mine! Can’t write tonight without tears! Leaning on Jesus! He is my compass when I feel lost! Found this poem, just a little of how I feel! Goodnight! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️
JESUS
Good evening! Friday blog! Days can start running into days! Even when you are doing everything you think needs to be done! When lists appear and disappear, I make lists for lists! Organization is on my mind until I go to sleep! Sometimes Denny’s anxiety is over the top, putting it mildly! Sometimes, it’s a …
Snap Decisions
Good evening! Thursday blog! I made a decision this morning based on a few facts from the situation! I did not ask myself the proper questions that might have made the day much more peaceful! For all of our kids! I depended on a person, I trust to convey the situation! It pretty much blew …
A Good Argument
Good evening! Wednesday blog! Does anyone look for a good argument? Does anyone start a good argument? Are you angry? Do you start one on purpose? Are you laid back and won’t engage? Do you like to pick until it goes into an argument? Does it matter? With both of us being bipolar, it did …
Remember Me
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I don’t like to use the word fear! But, it is a feeling and it comes calling whenever it wants! When Denny was first diagnosed, I was at the height of my gambling addiction! Now looking back since recovery, I was in denial for quite some time! I can’t even write …
My Heart Says I Love You
Good evening! Monday blog! Soooo happy to have Denny sitting here beside me! He really caught up on his sleep last night and half of the day! The nurse came today, she was pleased with everything! We have a busy day tomorrow! Going to get him out for a bit! He gets a four hour …
Home Sweet Home
Good evening! Sunday blog! I did not see that coming! Denny was discharged before I got there! Went to church and Freeway breakfast with kids! They were already getting him moving to leave! Didn’t take me long to pack him up! He is not as weak as I thought he would be! But, our home …
Decisions Of Love
Good evening! Saturday blog! From the time Denny and I married, we promised each other we would take care of each other! Well, my feeling is, Denny did his part! He provided for his family! He certainly took care of me! Even when I did not deserve it! His love for me has been unconditional! …
The Weight Of The World
Good evening! Friday blog! Have you ever felt it? So many things at once, pressing on you! Making you feel scattered all over! It’s not true! I have learned, only one thing can be tackled at a time! If you see it all at once, your mind becomes flooded! You are overwhelmed! You can’t even …
Overnight
Good evening! Thursday blog! Happy Halloween! Without a bunch of details! Called the squad at 11:00am! It’s been a rough day, the kind that drains you! Thank you Jesus! We just got in a room! 8:30pm! Just that fast, our plans changed overnight! Sure keeps me on my toes! Funny I should say that, I …
Strength From Music
Good evening! Wednesday blog! Way back on Jan. 3rd, 2016, I decided with much help and support from my family, I decided to quick gambling, as well as other behaviors! All of it was destroying me, my life, my relationships, All of them! Living a secret life is exhausting, full of misery! Therapy, group therapy, …
He Calms The Storms
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I have some kind of storm going on everyday, in my heart, in my mind, in my soul! This is a season in our life, that I would gladly throw away! I cannot describe the many feelings that go through me on any given day! Everyday is different! I ask God …
Lonely, Resentful, Bitter
Good evening! Monday blog! Never say never! These are some of the not so nice words we let ourselves believe and become! They don’t do anything for us, but make one feel worse, if you are suffering, in any way, feeling sorry for yourself can really drag you down! When one thing after another brings …
Self Care Self Trust
Good morning! Sunday blog! As I promised! I feel somewhat refreshed this morning! Mom said, why are you all dressed up? I said, for me! I wish I could go to church! I have three churches that I love! 1st one, our church home of 40 years! Our salvation came from the teaching at that …
Self Care Self Trust
Good evening! Saturday blog! I am taking sometime for myself right! now! I can’t keep my eyes open! To be continued tomorrow! You all get some sleep! Goodnight! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️
Confident Confidence
Good evening! Friday blog! Well, when Denny first got the tube, I thought how awful! I never thought about taking care of it! Everyone said it’s a skilled nursing thing! I was nervous! We are talking about life here! A man who just loved what he ate! Flavor, texture! Think about your favorite foods, all …
Trial And Error
Good afternoon! Wednesday and Thursday blog! Sooo sorry I have not written to keep up! I had every intention of writing yesterday morning! When the hospital bed became a priority for Denny, we had to clear out the room! Moms neighbor and my brother in law, Gary moved the queen bed! Her furniture weighs a …
Grateful
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Short one! I am so grateful tonight to have this man beside me! He wants the light out! Switching my blog back to mornings! Thank you for being here for us! Goodnight! God bless!❤️🤗🤗❤️
There’s No Place Like Home
Good evening! Monday blog! Everybody knows that famous phrase, from that famous movie! I know Denny has to feel that way! This has been our way of life since August 2013! If I were to sit down and add all of that time together, I’m sure it would be over a year! Let’s not forget …
My Shoes
Good evening! Sunday blog! As good as yesterday was , that’s how fast Parkinson’s and Dementia can rear it’s ugly head, and give you a completely different day! So I am up for the task when I walk in! But, as the day moves on, so do the changes in him! I know what I …
Sweetest Day?
Good evening! Saturday blog! Sweetest Day use to be a big deal! Hurt and offended if I was not acknowledged! Flowers, candy, big fancy cards that say all of that mushy stuff, dinner or all of it! Don’t get me wrong! All of that is wonderful, makes you feel special! I loved it! I forgot …
He Colored My World
Good evening! Friday blog! Everything is in place for Denny to come home! He has been cooped up since August 17th! He doesn’t believe me! I took a break this evening! I went to Whitmer to see Clay! They were getting beat pretty bad when I left! I only wanted to see the band! Our …
Even Imperfections
Good evening! Thursday blog! My relationship with Denny and he would say the same of me, was complicated to say the least! We both knew early on, we both came with a lot of baggage! We ran on feelings! It’s funny, I can chuckle about it now! We have so much more than feelings! Our …
God Mend My Heart Please
Good evening! Wednesday blog! I did not get to walk! It rained all morning! I spent a good portion of the day, on the phone with insurance companies! Never fun! Found out this afternoon, Denny is not coming home until Tuesday! Waiting on Medicare! Disappointed, is an understatement! I have been crying for an hour …
A Long Road
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Good news today! Denny’s discharge is Friday! Everything he needs has been ordered, and on the way! I do not have a lot to say tonight! I’m tired and I don’t care how cold it is in the morning! I am walking! I have to keep some normalcy in my life! …
Gods Seasoning
Good evening! Monday blog! Some might say at our age, 66 and 76, that we are in the golden years! I have heard some people call it the rusty years, either joking or with sarcasm! I have heard twilight years also! There are many seasons in life! A lot of different terms! I would not …
A Grieving Process
Good evening! Sunday blog! When one is at a loss for words! When nothing, no matter how you try to rationalize it, makes sense! When you can’t ask why, because I do not question God! But, I feel I am grieving something everyday! Not just my losses, but, Denny’s also! Grief is a process! I …
Time, Please Stand Still
Good evening! Saturday blog! As much as I loved today, every minute! Coming home alone is something I really don’t want to get use to! I am very emotional today! God help me! Does crying ever stop? It’s getting late, I want to walk in the morning and go to church! I’ve had three days …
Grandchildren!
Good evening! Friday blog! This is a short one, it’s getting late! Giving up sleep is worth every minute I just spent with my beautiful, oldest and first grandchild of mine! She is one of my greatest loves! I did her wedding cake and cupcakes! This week I did her baby shower cookies! I cannot …
Home
Good evening! Thursday blog! We had a care meeting today at Otterbein! My Denny is finally coming home! A year and a half ago! We sold our house of 40 years! I took it hard, all of our memories in that house! We made home here at moms! Now Denny’s body needs more attention, from …
Perseverance
Good evening! Wednesday blog! Persistence in doing something despite difficulty or delay! Hang in there! Do not give up! Finish your journey in this life! We do not know how our journey is going to end, but we can keep steering it on the right path! I know for me, I need to step back …
Mindfulness
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I had a therapy session this morning, to touch base, make sure I am still sane! Then group is two hours! Always wonderful conversation, about life, what triggers people! New intern on the scene! I liked her a lot! She had a stack of books, all different sizes and colors, they …
Patience and Wisdom
Good evening! Monday blog! In light of my outburst yesterday, patience and wisdom come to mind! A long time ago at church, from people with great humor would say something light about these two! Watch how you pray, if you pray for these two, God will give you something everyday to practice with! These two, …
Self Control
Good evening! Sunday blog! Well, I will be truthful, right up front! I lost it today! I went to church this morning, and that’s how fast the devil jumped on me! Yes, I believe in the devil and he will use any circumstance! I’m not saying what it was, I am not running anyone down! …
Marilyn’s Heart 