Good evening! Sunday blog! Did not get to walk this morning, rain! Did go to parking lot church! It’s church, it’s not my church! I miss seeing everyone! Just when I got back there, to all 3 churches that I love! My home church, I have been there 41 years! Many, many long friendships and …
Author Archives: Marilyn Bodi Reed
Jesus Wept
Good evening! Saturday blog! I know I have used this title before! It’s the truth, Jesus was in so much pain, hearing of His friend! That’s how I am tonight! My physical body feels like I am going to pass out and die! I cannot even describe it to myself! I look horrible from crying! …
In The End
Good evening! Friday blog! From the time Denny was diagnosed, I knew we were pressing towards an unknown that would take him from us! We never can pinpoint anything like that! I could have gone first! We live by Gods timetable! When He is ready for you, it’s just finished! Now that it’s over, I …
Grief Share Again
Good evening! Thursday blog! We had Grief Share tonight on Zoom! I will say it again! Technology is wonderful, when applied and used for the right things and reasons! I am so much more into my workbook than when I started! I cried a lot, answering the questions! Such good conversation with the group! Each …
PEP Talk
Good evening! Wednesday blog! The past two days have been different! On Monday morning, moms TV would not stay on! She called cable! That makes sense! Her TV was dead! So, she trusts me to go get her a new TV! 1st mistake! TV shelves are bare also! I come home with a 43” Roku! …
Happy Quarantine?
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Don’t know if I would use the word happy! But, I do hope and pray for all of you, that we use this time for positive change in our lives! We certainly have time to think of some constructive and positive new behaviors and ideas! If I had not finally gotten …
In Gods Hands
Good evening! Monday blog! I have been busy today! 12 weeks that Denny is in Heaven! Daughter and I shed some tears before our walk! Wish my son was walking with us! I just miss, miss, miss, everyone, and, everything! God is my rock and my salvation! In Him I will trust! I miss Denny! …
Psalm 23
Good evening! Saturday blog! I had a great day! Very crisp this morning, on our walk! But, a beautiful shining sun, on the water! I made three masks today for my cousin! I had a Zoom scheduled with the family, I was excited about that! Although a couple of them did not! It’s ok! We …
When The Angels Came
Good evening! Friday blog! My walk this morning before the snow was wonderful! Usually the birds, all of them are making all kinds of noise! I think you could have heard a pin drop! I have been here 2 years, I don’t know that I have ever heard that kind of quiet at a park! …
Talk To Each Other
Good evening! Thursday blog! Homes are really on overload right now! All computers, iPads, tablets, iPhones! Everyone in the house is on some type of device! It was hard for Zoom tonight to stay connected! It was our Grief Share! We did get in a little conversation! The leader is sending me downloads of the …
Lets Be Real Tonight
Good evening! Wednesday blog! Shall we? I am just a person, a bipolar person! I think I am pretty vocal about staying mentally healthy! But today something poked me, right between my eyes! Our Grief Share leader has set our meetings for us on Zoom! It’s great! He asked me last week, did you do …
To Love Or Be Loved
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I love that phrase! I just told my Dr. last week, I have been fortunate enough to be in love twice! I love both! Giving and receiving! I was so young when I married the first time! When I met Denny, it was electric! After he came in the donut shop, …
At Home In Heaven
Good evening! Monday blog! Every Monday that has rolled around, since Denny’s passing, is another week without him! Today is 11 weeks! It seems like a replay every week! I will say for me, I still cry everyday, but today seemed a little easier! I was busy all day! I am going to say the …
The First Holiday
Good evening! Sunday blog! I have been sitting here awhile! Just thinking about the day! So different from the past! It will be that way again! There is a lesson here from God, I am sure of it! When the tomb was found empty, that was the first Easter! Easter today without Denny was very …
Easter Eve
Good evening! Saturday blog! As I mentioned in a post, I have never had a holiday with just one pie! I boiled and colored eggs! Once again tonight I feel exhausted! If your Easter Eve was busy today with holiday traditions, then you are tired also! So, God is good, He is on the throne! …
Sunday Is Coming
Good evening! Friday blog! I don’t know how many actually think about what happened on that very first Good Friday! I never used to! But today, when I think of Denny in heaven, set free, from the bondage that Parkinson’s had him in! Praise be to God, the only one who loved us enough to …
You Touched My Soul
Good evening! Thursday blog! I am feeling especially smart this evening! I am all about old dogs learning new tricks! I had Grief Share from my own room tonight, on Zoom! How wonderful technology is! Actually conversing with our leader, and others from the group! Soooooo cool! In just that short amount of time, I …
A Lot In One Year
Good evening! Wednesday blog! I just posted how I got started writing my blog! It will be one whole year on April 13, 2019! My heart breaks all over again, thinking of everything we went through! I will never stop missing him! Such a hole in my life! Take care of each other, I cannot …
Just Call Me Sleepy
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Moved all of my sewing into my bedroom! Some of the family asked for masks, mainly our kids! Spent most of the day doing those! Not done! I can’t keep my eyes open! I don’t like it! So, until tomorrow! God is good! Good night God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Joy Is Still Here
Good evening! Monday blog! I’m just going to be honest tonight! This 10 week already, has crushed me today! The crying has escalated throughout this day! I need to get some sleep! I am not depressed, nor do I want to be! It’s just waves of sorrow! I know my life is not as it …
Crazy Actions Or Peaceful
Good evening! Sunday blog! I do not have TV on much and I know why! I hear nothing but total chaos! Has anyone heard the word prayer! Just because there is no church right now! God cannot be cancelled out! Sunday is still Sunday! The day the Lord set aside for worship! God still hears …
Time In A Bottle
Good evening! Saturday blog! We cannot complain about time! Precious time really! Do you wonder how you squeezed everything in, in a day! I know I say it enough! It’s because time ran out for Denny and I! If I could have grabbed time and stopped it for just one more day! What would we …
Missing In Action
Good evening! Friday blog! I miss my family! I count on God! But, I knew my family could be seen, hugged, kissed, in a matter of a few miles! I know I am not the only one who is going through this! I know I am not the only one without a spouse! All of …
A Precious Memory!
Good evening! Thursday blog! Since it is TBT, I will share a Denny and I picture, after the other images! I was really doing well today, kept very busy! Beautiful weather took me back to the park with my doggie, Beagle! Stopped to the store and went for ice cream! She really had a good …
Up From The Grave He Arose
Good evening! Wednesday blog! The only words I have tonight, is Jesus, come quickly! I have not watched TV since Denny passed! I know what’s happening! God does not want anyone of us to parish! He is taking time! People are dying at a very fast rate! I choose to keep fear and worry away …
Just Breathe
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Let’s start at the top! Up at 4:30am, I felt I had a decent amount of sleep! Walking was set back for meetings that my daughter had to take care of, on the devices of course! The gloomy weather is not helping! I thought I was doing ok, I did laundry, …
A Love Letter To My Angel Wings
Good evening! Monday blog! My dearest love in heaven! I am not going to ask how you are, I already know! Because I believe! In my mind I can see such a brightness, all around you! You look perfect, your dark, wavy hair again, so shiny and wavy! Your skin is golden from all of …
Tug Of War
Good evening! Sunday blog! I won’t lie! I have been struggling all day! My days are running together like a blur! It’s awful! I need to set up a schedule for myself! I only feel like a human at the park, when walking! I will not blame God as we ride this out! I need …
Stop And Smell The Roses
Good evening! Saturday blog! I did write this, at 8:00 this morning! I waited to publish tonight! I did not sleep well, my sleep is not the way it use to be! I am assuming at some point in time, my inner most will settle down! I’m not delusional, I just can’t get over how …
Hourglass Time Frame
Good evening! Friday blog! I guess I am destined to be an evening writer! I keep waiting for 3:00am to come back to me! 3:00am was my time frame for a couple of years! It was so I could have some alone time for me! So now with this virus crisis, I have all day …
God Knows Me
Good afternoon! Thursday blog! Where did my morning go? Why do the hours pass so quickly? I feel I have accomplished nothing! But, I know that is not true! My daughter and I walk together now, since she is off work! Had breakfast! Mom is feeling a lot better!She wanted her perm, I am the …
Missing You
Good evening! Wednesday blog! Somehow I have my time turned around again! No commitments, accept walking! No appointments! Yet, here I am trying to type through tears! I am so much better in the morning! Just emotional tonight! Going through a lot of pictures! That’s emotional enough! Some, I can stare at, some, I fall …
This Is Not Goodbye
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I think about God and where Denny is! I’m so thankful that he knew Jesus! The blessed assurance that we will be together again, better, more glorious than one can ever imagine! With everything going on, I think on Jesus and His coming again! None of us knows, what if this …
Awareness
Good evening! Monday blog! April is Parkinson’s Awareness Month! Knowledge or perception of a situation or fact! Concerned about and well-informed! I still have a lot to learn! I know a couple of people that passed and a couple of people who are facing the outcome! I did not know much about it! I started …
When Jesus Calls
Good evening! Sunday blog! My days are so messed up! The only normal going on, is walking! I wrote out a new schedule this morning, just to stay on top of things! Tomorrow will be two months already! I can’t even wrap my mind around that! I miss him so! It doesn’t matter what I …
Some Great Memories
Good afternoon! Saturday blog! I have been going through phone pictures ! Amazing how many a phone can hold! Don’t you wonder how many albums that would take? I do! Anyway, 45 years we lived together, married 42! That’s a lot of pictures! I have been working on getting all of my scrapbooking things organized! …
Attitude Of Gratitude
Good afternoon! Friday blog! It’s afternoon already! Going to see my granddaughter and, adorable great grandson! He is soooo sweet! I have had my two kids walking with me this week! Grateful! Loving the family time! Was at Hobby Lobby twice this week! I only have three years to get three scrapbooks done for our …
Worry And Fear
Good morning! Thursday blog! As promised, a writing in the morning! Today’s Daily Bread, Delight in the Book! How appropriate for and with everything going on! I accepted Christ in 1980! Denny accepted Christ in 1982! For a good many years we served Jesus and our church! Until mental illness took over our lives and …
Time To Switch
Good evening! Wednesday blog! I definitely need to switch my blogging time! I wake up good! Happy, ready to start a new day! At night, I’m tired, want to to sleep! My hours are messed up! I am much more sad at night when I come in here! I will write early tomorrow! Something light …
In Just One Year
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Happy Saint Patrick’s Day! I am sharing images tonight of St. Patrick’s Day one year ago! FB memories! Just one year ago today, I had Denny sitting at the kitchen table with me! Having coffee, in my green cup! I’m sure I fixed him a nice breakfast! I always did, especially …
Grief Still Lives
Good evening! Monday blog! Seven weeks today! Seems like Seven eternities! I can function so well during the day! New house client today! I cleaned for five hours straight! I get home, have supper, in my room, here comes the tears! I can still hear the way he sounded that morning! Some things will never …
My God, Is An Awesome God
Good evening! Sunday blog! He reins forever and ever! I never forget that! Today, the Lords day, the day of rest! Set aside for worship! Many churches closed for caution and safety! After my walk, I found out that our granddaughters church, had open doors! I have three churches that I love! My home church, …
When Its Over
Good evening! Saturday blog! Sitting here in bed, I do not think I am feeling sorry for myself! But, I cannot get a handle on crying tonight! I look around and keep remembering! I thought of something tonight, please do not take this the wrong way! Everyone was here, everyday, when it was over, everyone …
Step Back
Good evening! Friday blog! Everything I have gone through, every bad choice I have made, not considering consequences, constantly playing the victim card, manipulating people for my own whatever’s, chasing rainbows that cannot be caught! You get the picture! It is only by the GRACE of GOD that I am even living and breathing! My …
Sleep Please
Good evening! Thursday blog! I’m going to toss in a TBT picture! I added some writings about angel wings! I love that nickname! I wish the fatigue would leave me alone! I want normal sleep back! Till tomorrow! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Hello Angel Wings
Good evening! Wednesday blog! I left at 8:15am this morning, and got home tonight at 6:20pm! S.S. was not a good experience today! But, finally everything was settled when I left! A little piece of mind! My numbers grew from the last visit! Just get the numbers in the bank! LOL!!! It was all making …
Never Ending Paperwork
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Where do I begin? Let’s step back a bit! I will admit, I said Denny was almost ten yrs. older than I! Old school and some old fashioned! I was a kept woman! I knew how to do things, checks, bills, but, never required! If I did make money, he would …
Faith
Good evening! Monday blog! Six weeks today! Where is time going! I worked all day! Not without sobs! It just engulfs me, takes my breath away! I can’t even speak! I really have no words tonight! Just feel drained! Joy comes in the morning! Because I choose it! I love my a God and He …
Devoted to God And Denny’s Memory
Good evening! Sunday blog! Today was my first funeral since Denny’s! Always good to see cousins! No matter how long ago, just like yesterday! I am moving back into house cleaning! I start tomorrow! Always has been good in the past, word of mouth! So, I am not worried! Sermon on Devotion today! My days …
Greater the Love………………Greater the Grief
Good evening! Saturday blog! My daughter can find some pretty profound things to share about many topics! Never is she more passionate, than when it has something to do with her dad and what we are going through! The topic of grief is a big one! We have all experienced grief to some level in …
Marilyn’s Heart 