Good evening! Friday blog! I have so many pictures on my phone! Pictures of pictures! I will never tire of looking at that handsome face! The face that grew on me everyday! Of course the much younger police picture, was probably early 80’s! The one of us was our last Christmas at our house on …
Author Archives: Marilyn Bodi Reed
I Love You Forever
Good evening! Thursday blog! Grief Share tonight! I just want to stay functioning! I’ll never stop missing him! God is good and I have not asked God why! It is late! I am tired! B-12 shot early! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
One Of Those Days
Good evening! Wednesday blog! As busy as I keep myself, grandkid things, sports, help classes, appointments, church, baking to give, baking for profit, etc. When I turn the light out, I am sobbing! I wish a magic wand could take it all away! That’s foolish talk! I know where my help comes from! The Lord …
My Loyal Family
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I’m sorry, did not get writing done, decided to go to group! I am never sorry afterward! I am so very fortunate! These past seven years have been quite a trial for each of us! As a whole unit and individually! Denny became ill quickly, the diagnosis of Parkinson’s came a …
I’m So Tired
Good evening! Monday blog! I had fun delivering cookies! My eyes keep going shut! Five weeks today! Unreal! I had some very nice visits! If you don’t mind, I will write in the morning! Love you all! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Missing You
Good evening! Sunday blog! It will be five weeks tomorrow! How can that be? For three days, my voice cracked, but no full blown crying! Until I walked into the bedroom tonight and I remember every detail of that weekend and we knew you were leaving! I miss you everywhere I am, everywhere I look, …
Finish The Race
Good evening! Saturday blog! I had specific things I wanted to get done! I do not like putting pressure on myself! I just have been feeling lousy when I get up! My system is out of wack! Everyday, my walk came right after my time with God! This afternoon I jumped in my walking clothes …
Suffering Produces Endurance Romans 5:3
Good evening! Friday’s blog! This mornings Daily Bread! I love that devotional! Just packed with little morsels from life and always scripture to match! When I started walking in 2015, it had been a while! So I am all hog or nothing! Whatever that means! I was diligent and faithful, I also became fast! In …
A Rough Day
Good evening! Thursday blog! Another tearful day! I need a grief class everyday! I missed tonight, for spaghetti! Band trip, soon! I’m standing in the school, where I went! But, Denny was with us last year! I looked at the table where we sat, and lost it! Bursting into tears, in public! Is that part …
Grief Does Not Take A Break
Good evening! Wednesday blog! I do know there is not a time frame on grief! Thank God! If it was a race, I would lose! I am sharing this picture of Denny tonight because he was in the Knock Out Parkinson’s Program! He looks so good! This was July 17th, one month before pneumonia and …
Gods Strength
Good evening! Tuesday blog! It has been a long day! I feel like a computer that’s ready to shut down, crash permanently! I love you Lord! I started early! Baked a big pan cookie for group! I love seeing their eyes light up! I had eight cases of formula left and some other things that …
Friendship Connected By Hearts
Good evening! Monday blog! I have and am still, through this process, journey, whatever you want to call it! I did not have time to think of any relationships, while losing my longest relationship! I have known for a long time, when everything was said and done, I would be back in my church home, …
All Anniversaries Are Special
Good evening! Sunday blog! Remember, our anniversary was right after the funeral, on the 4th! It would have been 43! In 2017, it was our Ruby, 40 years! Denny was already sick three years! I gave us a Ruby party! I am so happy I did! We have great pictures from that day! I did …
Keep Smiling, Hey Tootsie!
Good evening! Saturday blog! I have not shared this before, Denny called me Tootsie, ask his therapists, they thought that was a hoot! Working through grief, is no picnic! Crying is on overload, while I am practicing smiling through the tears! I do not want to bypass any steps along this painful journey! I can …
Jesus Tears
Good evening! Friday blog! My goodness, I have been so busy! All great reminders, that I am a child of God! He will never leave me, nor forsake me! I am not trying to overcome grief! It is way to soon! I am trying to grab as many healthy things as I can, to carry …
Set Your Meter On Kindness Overload
Good evening! Thursday blog! My second Grief Share! I love it! Walk through every part of your pain! No skipping spots! Some wounds have to be cleaned over and over! I never tire of new ways to learn how to get through life as it comes! And it will, to all of us! I have …
Continue To Fill My Cup
Good afternoon! Tuesday and Wednesday blog! How many see their cup half full or half empty? I try to always see half full! Denny saw half empty! Even if it only stays half full, I want the fullness of the Lord! I have tried my way, more than once, disaster!!! You have to be and …
We Belong To God
Good evening! Monday blog! Well, today has been three weeks already! As much as I miss him, as much as I would love to have him back, it is not for any of us to say time wise! We all belong to God, and God alone! Our timing is set before we are even born! …
God Has My Attention
Good evening! Saturday blog! Quickly I am going to share how this morning went! I got up at 5:30! Got my coffee going! Mom has had a bad cough since the middle of January! I take my coffee in my room and I hear very loud gasping! I run, she is trying to walk, 911 …
Overwhelming Sorrow
Good evening! Friday blog! My day started early, I had two doctor appointments! Then I treated myself to breakfast at Bobs! We always stopped there together! I ate, but, not without sadness! My heart was heavy all day! I miss my sweetheart! I did get some gifts from heaven! Denny and his elf! It became …
Grief Share
Good evening! Thursday blog! I finally made it to my first grief class! We all are on common ground! We all have aching hearts! I am happy I went! I was able to speak without falling apart! If I had fallen apart, that’s ok too! No timeframe on grief! No one wants to be judged …
Blessed Beyond Measure
Good evening! Wednesday blog! My heart feels as if it’s broken and spilling on the ground! A song, a glance at a picture, if my mind wanders, I can’t breathe! The tears won’t stop until I turn away! My angel Denny, was my once in a lifetime and I was his! I give myself a …
Never Ending Tears
Good evening! Tuesday blog! Yesterday physical pain, today mental pain! Today started the process of benefits, widows pay, survivor pay! I do not like any of these titles! But, it has to be! Things have to be changed over! Denny was old school the family protector! I am not afraid to learn anything and everything! …
Till I See You Again
Good evening! Monday blog! What a day! I cannot remember the last time that I was this sick! Fever and all! I spent the whole day in bed, thinking of things I can say and do, to keep Denny’s memory alive! To honor him always as he deserves! From his life to death! We will …
God Knows Best
Good evening! Sunday blog! I am taking a break tonight! Everything hurts! And God still knows what’s best! Because God is good! I hope you all had a good weekend! Continued prayers! I am miserable! Good night! God bless! ❤️🤗🙏🏻🙏🏻🤗❤️
Victory Is At The Cross
Good evening! Saturday blog! I might have continuous tears in my eyes, but I can still see the CROSS! ✝️ The cross is the victory! Nothing in my life will ever be the same without Denny! I accept that, Denny is in the arms of Jesus! No better place to be! I still choose the …
Missing Kisses
Good morning! Friday blog! Some of our 40th Ruby Anniversary pictures have surfaced, in honor of Denny, my love! Like this one! Kissing, no less! How special is that? More than anyone will ever know! I knew whenever God took him, it would be painful! I can’t even describe it! I choose joy and happiness, …
Smile Forever
Good morning! Thursday blog! I wrote a post on FB this morning, it’s what I will share today! In all honesty! There is not any amount of space anywhere to tell of all the qualities Denny Reed had! He was so humble, he did not believe he possessed any of the things we said! I …
No Tears In Heaven
Good evening! Wednesday blog! Basketball and Wrestling tonight! Love seeing their sports again! Cannot keep my eyes open! I hope you understand! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Grief
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I truly cannot remember a time in my life I have felt this kind of tired! I think that my day was well spent, therapy, group, granddaughter lunch! Denny’s elf was at work again! I picked up Denny’s ashes, I actually felt better after I had them! He is right next …
Happy Anniversary In Heaven Denny
Good morning! Tuesday blog! 43 years ago today, we made our way to downtown Toledo! January 26th was our original date! We were cancelled because of snow! On February 4th, 1977, it was a bitter cold day, our I do’s finally took place! Came back to moms, ate, cut the cake, some picture taking! Drove …
Sleep Please
Good evening! Monday blog! I am sooooo tired! I will write tomorrow!
A lovely Day
Good evening! Sunday blog! Quite a brisk walk this morning! It was cold! I could not feel my thumbs! But, I am never sorry after I am out there! Off to church! MainStreet, Denny’s and my home church! Raised our family in! Brunch with the daughter and son in law! Bob Evans! Walmart and Dollar …
Choose Joy Through Tears
Good evening! Saturday blog! It’s OK to cry, even when you can’t see through the tears, you can still choose JOY and HAPPINESS! I need to choose these things! My tears might last forever! I cannot, I will not, go backwards! Today was good! Got all funeral things put away, our daughter from Myrtle Beach …
Joy Comes In The Morning
Good evening! Friday blog! Wow! The passing of Denny, I miss him so! He is pain free! I love him forever! The legacy and testimony that we saw from all of the visitors, last evening and today, nothing short of amazing! Amazing life! I wish he could have seen the wonderful man we saw! I …
Strength For Today
Good morning! Thursday blog! Today I see my Denny, just his outer shell! Visually, we will see my handsome Denny all dressed up for his family, where we will get comfort! Why, because he was set free on Monday, from the chains that had him in bondage, way too long! All of the beautiful and …
Strength For Tomorrow
Good evening! Wednesday blog! Wasn’t Denny’s tribute absolutely beautiful? Our daughter sent me this! It’s beautiful too! And true! Prayers for the rest of this journey please! Tuesday is our anniversary, I bought a card, to go with him! M God is with us! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
Sweet Dreams My Love
Good evening! Tuesday blog! I was good, until the pictures came out! Almost cried with every picture! And, I’m still good! Just extremely tired! Daughter and son in law from Myrtle Beach arrived safely! Isn’t the Obit beautiful? Other family members on the road! Thank you Lord, my Redeemer! Good night! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻💔🙏🏻🤗❤️
Don’t Grieve For Me, I Have Been Set Free
Good evening! Sunday and Monday blog! My heart has been torn wide open! I wanted to write last evening, but my eyes were not having it! My Denny passed from this world today after a very hard fought battle with Parkinson’s! He fought the good fight! I am soooo tired, soooo weary! My Denny is …
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When It’s Time To Let Go……… Let God
Good evening! Saturday blog! After writing last evening, about the unexpected! It happened around 2:00am this morning! 102 fever means pneumonia! I called hospice, got one of our nurses, he is great! Called kids! He was drowning right in front of us from his tube feed! Things happened quickly! Got all of that out of …
Expect The Unexpected
Good evening! Friday blog! Today became one of those unexpected days! Or, was it expected? Pneumonia is a very serious threat to people with Parkinson’s! Talk about a rollercoaster ride of emotions today! I have been pretty busy today! I still start early if there is something special that I want to do! Like a …
So Many Emotions
Good evening! Thursday blog! Yesterday and today, I got to walk! Walking to me is the same as breathing! Lately, I feel as if I am suffocating, because I want to run out the door for me! Then I feel selfish! I am on a roller coaster of emotions, that no one could have prepared …
My Gift To You
Good evening! Wednesday blog! I am sharing a poem on care! My gift to Denny! Our 43rd Wedding Anniversary is getting close! February 4th, 1977! Our original date was January 26th, 1977! Know one talks about that blizzard! It shut down the whole city! We made the Blade! Weddings put on Ice! 3 couples could …
I Will See You Forever
Good evening! Tuesday blog! No matter what I am doing, taking care of Denny, walking Beagle outside, whatever I see, whatever I hear! I see and hear him in all things! Just about everything sparks a memory, he is in them all! Every song, reminds me of something we did, or somewhere we went! His …
Delusional Love
Good evening! Monday blog! I know the title does not sound nice! So, let some of us reach way back in the memory bank! Then, all of you new fall in lovers and newlyweds! I put myself first in that scenario! Not many, when you fall in love and you just know, nobody thinks of …
Bittersweet Goodbyes
Good evening! Sunday blog! Not really goodbye! Denny’s mom use to say so long! She said goodbye was too final! Not knowing about Denny’s illness from day to day, it will be hard for them to say bye! We are all so happy she decided to come home! She will be flying out tomorrow night! …
Never Ending Family Memories
Good evening! Saturday blog! Our daughter landed safely in Detroit from Myrtle Beach! Her sister picked her up and they stopped for lunch together! Then came over! Our son and grandsons came! They are usually the ones missing for sports! Weather took care of that! Our younger one has been sick with those winter bugs! …
Gods Greatest Gifts…Family
Good evening! Friday blog! Look for the blessings! Sometimes there right in front of us! Our beautiful granddaughter brought her new baby son over for a visit! My first great grandchild! Of course the most beautiful baby I have ever seen! Besides my own children and grandchildren! My heart was over the moon! Thank you …
I Would Choose You Again
Good evening! Thursday blog! Plus it’s TBT! Love this kind of day! I did not feel well most of the day! Someone asked for a couple of pictures, so, I started looking at all pictures! I did nothing today in between Denny’s care, I laid on the bed all day, listening to him breath! Thinking …
Precious Sleep
Good evening! Wednesday blog! So tired tonight, I really can’t see straight! I am not complaining! My day rolls pretty smooth! Somethings just take more time than other things! A day truly is a disappearing act, the list is endless! Hospice thinks I am doing a great job! But, you know how we beat ourselves …
Marilyn’s Heart 