Through Grief…….Love Lives On

Good day! Thursday blog! I have not blogged since February 28th. I believe that is my longest period of time! I have been extremely tired. That is not something that I experience very often. I don’t like it when it happens. As soon as I sat down, my eyes wanted to close. I fell on the ice at the park, on the second day, my back tightened. Ibuprofen and a week off, I am back to walking with no pain! Thank you Lord! I started a weight lifting program online. I like it. Now, my grief meter. I did not believe it possible in the beginning, when everything inside you and out of you are just raw nerves exposed! The least little sound or something you cannot remember, feels like electrocution. Like everything that you knew in your head and heart died also. An emptiness that cannot even be explained. If you try to, you just fill with tears. Even now writing about it, my eyes keep filling. Some said, you are young, give it time. My heart and mind said, no way do I want another person in my life. Not any person. Then 8 months passed and just like that, an old friend. Over 50 years we have known each other. And, that is what it is, friendship. It is great to laugh again, about anything. So you might believe doors are forever shut and then, one opens. So, my tears are not as often. Certain things still trigger. I love Denny Reed forever. I will see him again. In the mean time, it’s ok to smile, it’s ok to laugh. If I ever feel that depression could be coming, I do not give in. I remember beautiful memories of our love and many years together and I can smile for the life I had with Denny! When I look at our children and grandchildren, all extensions of our love and life together. If there were times when things were not perfect, it does not matter anymore. I think only of our best times of love and our family. Even our little great grandson, he likes the iPad, he sits there looking at his great papa that he did not know. The circle of life moves forward,wether we like it or not. I want to be a positive force in my families lives! I miss Denny every day. Laughing and smiling are ok, even essential. God given emotions. I lean on Him always! God is good, and so is life! It is our choice. I choose joy and happiness always! I love all of you. Your love and support of my family and myself have been most appreciated. We might not see each other, but we know we are there. Have a wonderful rest of your day! God bless!❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️