“The Grief Meter Is Still Running“

Good evening, Tuesday night blog! Believe it or not, sometimes I just feel a loss for words! I don’t want to keep repeating myself or be a broken record! It has been a few weeks! My Denny has been gone now for 2 1/2 years! That is 30 months! Just saying the time frame to myself, stings my eyes with tears! I decided to write tonight, for a reason. I was driving, after half a day with the babies, my two great grandchildren. Denny “was a big DooWop fan and I am also. He loved “Twilight Time,”by the “Platters” we played it a lot while he was passing. I play it a lot. Today it came on, it took my mind back to the moment, he took his last breath. I had to pull off of the road, the tears came so fast. When that happens, there is no quick fix. Grief tears have to run there course! So, tears have been off and on all evening. I always recover. Staying busy is very helpful. Not everyone grieves the same, nor should they be expected to. It is a part of life. I have become big on speaking of love and memories. Regret can be very ugly! I miss him in ways that go all the way back to the day of the accident. When he gave me that ticket! We didn’t even know each other then. Don’t get lost in the busyness of life. It just adds more pain! Life goes on, I stay very busy. Tomorrow I am spending the day with my daughter, I cannot wait! Family time is still always the best, to keep a mind busy. My Denny had Parkinson’s for 7 years, my mental health was not that great. With my families help, I started therapy, which allowed me to take care of my husband. We had seven years to talk about the changes coming to our lives. Those who have loved ones taken quickly, might be left with regret! Take the time, while you have it. Regret is tough. Good night and God bless!🤗🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻🤗