Good evening. Wednesday blog! I try to plan my days enough, so my mind is not wandering all over the place. Today I compared my heart to a bouncing ball, all over the place. That does not mean that I can’t get anything done. Because I do. Walking always comes first. No thinking about it. …
Author Archives: Marilyn Bodi Reed
Rest In Jesus
Good evening. Tuesday blog. With the way the whole world is right now. How does one not live in fear? God clearly says that worry and fear are wrong choices for life. Sin. You cannot add one extra day to your life by worrying. Fear and worry are exhausting! I really just came through the …
Transcending Loss……by Ashley Davis Bush
Good evening. Monday blog. I have been reading this book. It is excellent. Why did it take me so long to start it. It all makes perfect sense. When applied along the way to honor our loved one! I’m not going to lie, the past two days, I gave into some depression. I didn’t like …
Some Anniversaries Will Always Hurt
Good evening. Sunday blog! I even hesitated to share this tonight, its part of our story, it can’t be left out. All of you that are married, have life partners, however or whatever way you are connected to the love of your life. I cannot stress it enough, I am not an expert, I am …
A Life Well Lived
Good evening. Saturday blog. My title here has a lot written about. Just the words bring a certain amount of peace. I read that happiness is not a goal, it’s a by-product of a life well lived! Eleanor Roosevelt, a smart woman. Denny and I did not always choose happiness, we let circumstances get in …
I Walk For Me
Good evening. Friday blog. I have walked throughout my life many times, never giving it a chance to show me benefits. Always quitting. Entering recovery, I started replacing negatives with positives! As I moved through the program, I started seeing and feeling the benefits of a healthy lifestyle mentally, physically and spiritually! At that point …
Missing You Is Not Easy
Good evening. Thursday blog. What does missing a person mean? What happened to absence makes the heart grow fonder. That’s a lie. I tell my head every right thing everyday. It’s my heart that is not cooperating. How does the heart follow the mind or do I have it backwards? I made a list, pros …
Grief Is Another Person In Me
Good evening. Wednesday blog. I read something or hear something about grief everyday. The person I am now, grieving the loss of Denny, has to come to terms with the person I was when Denny was here! Back and forth, like two people, playing tug of war. I feel like grief is going to destroy …
LOVE REMAINS
Good evening. Tuesday blog. Last evening, before sleep, I wrote a poem. I have not written any in awhile. Sometimes words flow, sometimes nothing. Oh my Denny, love of my life, I could not wait to be your wife. A lot happened in 42 years, now everyday, I think of you with tears. Tears for …
Time Sure Does Fly
Good evening. Monday blog! We all in this family, struggle on Monday’s. Denny passed away on a Monday in January, which was the 27th. We count by every Monday. Date wise it’s the 27th, 6 months today! It seems so long, and yet, seems like yesterday. Everyday, I miss him more!. Everything that I continue …
Short And Sweet and….. To The Point
Good evening. Sunday blog. Got my first day down for my 50 mile week. Spent an hour in the sun, way to hot. Went to the store, picked up early supper. Invited to the granddaughters pool. A date with my little man. He is so precious! Instantly, I was with family. It’s always great when …
The Winds Of Change
Good evening. Saturday blog! The winds of change are upon us and all around us. I don’t listen to the news very often. It’s like a broken record, only thing that changes, are the number of lives it keeps taking! Denny and I unfortunately had a lot of changes in our life, before, after, and …
Heaven Was Waiting For You
Good evening. Friday blog! I think about heaven everyday! Since that is Denny’s new home! When I am walking around all sad and gloomy. Why? He is in such a better place! I keep telling my heart that, it’s not listening! I was doing really good today. I finished my book, Heartbroken, Loss of a …
My Help Comes From The Lord…… Psalm 121:2
Good evening. Thursday blog. With everything our family has been through these past 7 years, has truly drawn us back and closer to the Lord! My walk with Him came back through recovery! I couldn’t do any of that in my own strength. I still have people, family, tell me how strong they think I …
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The Grief Club
Good evening. Wednesday blog. The club no one asked for. To join, you have to suffer loss! Who would sign up for that? Membership is automatic, after losing someone you love. For clarity, we are not here by choice, it’s not exclusive! The only comfort, we are not alone! We can choose to reach out, …
What’s In A Memory
Good evening. Tuesday blog. I think FB is pretty cool, on how they show past posts, which are now memories. Four years ago today Denny and I were at Centennial Terrace for the Beachboys concert, dinner first! Classmates from 1970. We had such a good time. We love the Beachboys. We saw them three times. …
25 Weeks Of Missing You…….Psalms 30:5
Good evening. Monday blog. Today started like any other, wake up early, coffee, ready for my walk. Getting easier to do six miles! Such a peaceful walk! When I got back, more coffee, had my smoothie. I just could not get with the program. I have been sad all day! I don’t know. I have …
Family………I Love You
Good evening. Sunday blog. In light of the family graduation yesterday, my cousins granddaughter. I got to see some people that I have not seen for a while! I find a family day like that, the best kind of love. The kind that warms the heart. Makes you smile every time you think of the …
A Portrait Of Love
Good evening. Saturday blog. Family grad party, always a good time with our big clan! So happy to be with my kids and grandkids for a gathering! So I already shared this gift on FB! My FB post, is my story tonight! God is first and foremost in my life. The family God blessed me …
Sleep Precious Sleep
Good evening. Friday blog. I still have not figured out how to arrange my days! Leaves me feeling a little flustered. I took care of Denny 24/7, I was more organized then than now! It’s probably not true, I just feel that way! I feel so tired! God wants me to rest. I am walking …
Another Busy Day…….
Good evening. Thursday blog. I have been on the go since 4:00am. Cleaned a house today! Past client. Met my daughter at the Brass Monkey Tattoo Co. we had our tulips touched up. No judgement please. Then I saw it, Denny’s name shaped like a heart. Tada. Late lunch, home. Then, invited to see my …
What’s In A Day…………
Good evening. Wednesday blog. Going way back over our years, years we took for granted! How do you walk through this life, arrogant enough to think, I have all the time in the world. Who on earth told you that? These are lies we tell ourselves everyday! We can do that tomorrow, when we are …
Love One Another………….
Good evening. Tuesday blog. Why is this so hard to do? We were created by God, in Gods image. If you know anything about God, if I could pick for you, I choose the promises of God. They were written all of those years ago, to instruct us through this life! To comfort us as …
Grief Is Never Ending
Good evening. Monday blog. He heals the broken-hearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3. Grief changes shape along the way, but, it never ends. I’m pretty sure it will go on the rest of my life. It’s a passage, it’s the price of love. We can be a light that shines, long after the …
The Face Of Grief
Good evening. Sunday blog. My face and eyes look different everyday. I compared some some pictures. I look so sad. It hurts to look at me hurting. Some times I feel like the little train, that just cannot get up the hill. I’ll make it, still moving upward! Today being Sunday, my home church of …
I Miss My Husband
Good evening. Saturday blog. I had a great morning. The air was perfect for walking, 5.9 miles! I feel so good after walking. Mine is not a stroll, it’s aerobic. I want to stay healthy until God has other plans! So, after two great days, grief came for a visit today, unexpected! I have recently …
Am I Conquering Grief
Good evening. Friday blog. I ask myself this everyday! I am still going through books, video clips! Google is wonderful, shows all kinds of things to help in showing us how to cope. It is not a question that you can ask anybody. I think most don’t ask us, they think we will breakdown and …
Surviving Sadness
Good evening. Thursday blog. Survival is possible, because I am choosing it. There are choices in every area of our lives! I could of said no today, I’m to sad, it won’t be fun. I love road trips. It has always been one of my favorite things to do. I had a fun and wonderful …
One Day At A Time
Good evening. Wednesday blog. I know I have talked about this before. It is important. I told Denny all the time, do not worry about tomorrow, we might not see tomorrow. Tomorrow will have enough worry of it’s own. I know I am looking to far ahead! So, right now, I am falling asleep. Going …
Busy Hands………Happy Heart
Good evening. Tuesday blog. Did I have a productive day? Yes I did! I started my walk at 5:20am, yes, it is daylight. One of my cousins met me and we caught up on family! Back home, ready for the day. My granddaughter loves Strawberry Pie. Denny loved strawberry pie. She likes that for her …
I Will Grieve Tomorrow
Good evening. Monday blog. Don’t put off until tomorrow, what can be done today. That’s like trying to sweep dirt under a rug. You can’t see it, but, it’s still there! In a couple of weeks Denny will be gone 6 months. That cannot be possible! Just my thoughts! He is steady on my mind, …
God Is………………
Good evening. Sunday blog. I think about this a lot. Seek Him while He can be found! This picture of Denny, I, and the Beagle was a day trip, to just drive up North. Just one year ago, we were riding in the car, stopped at a park, stopped for something to eat! Then, one …
God Will Make A Way
Good evening. Saturday blog. Happy 4th of July. I pray you are all safe and sound! Very small group compared to years past. That’s ok, nothing stays the same. I miss Denny so much! God Will Make A Way, is a song that I listen to over and over, this past year. 1. It’s true. …
Taking A Break………..Is Not Failure
Good evening. Friday blog! I’m feeling a little burnout tonight. I’m going to sleep. I’ll be back tomorrow! I just want to say quickly, how much it means to me to see your name on my blog! It’s exciting to see how many just over night. I love it, I appreciate all of you. But, …
My Help Comes From The Lord
Good evening. Thursday blog. Well, my cleaning has started! I was in Michigan all day. I will be back in Michigan tomorrow. I don’t have a problem driving. I find something very satisfying when I am done with a home, a finished job. Although it doesn’t feel like a job. It feels like freedom. I …
Guilt Or False Guilt
Good evening. Wednesday blog. Guilt can be tricky and sneaky. I had lunch with 2 Bodi cousins today and one of his friends. I was doing really well. I was able to talk about Denny and special memories. A couple of tears came out, for a moment, the feeling of guilt washed over me. I …
Memories………Take Me Back To Yesterday
Good evening. Tuesday blog. My granddaughter does not live that far from us! Momma to that beautiful blue eyed great grandson baby! I was invited to swim and sunbathe. Her two brothers, that’s my grandsons and my daughter also! They were just here so Grandma Bodi could see them all! That made her so happy! …
Life Is Not Fair………..But God Is
Good evening. Monday blog. I have been hearing a lot lately, where the death of a spouse is concerned, saying it is not fair, not one of us has the corner market on that! In this life you will have trouble! One of my favorite verses, in the book of James! Don’t we all know, …
Testing, Testing, Hows Life Today
Good evening. Sunday blog. That’s me every morning, testing myself, like a running meter. I ask myself the same questions every day. How are you really doing? Can you get through another day? How’s the crying? More or less? Etc. I try to answer myself in a positive way. If I did move in a …
Praise The Lord Anyway
Good evening. Saturday blog. I am just in a praise God way tonight. I am forever blessed, because He called me out of the pit! He set me on a straight path. The name of Jesus is on my mind always. I must never forget how far you have brought me! Or, how far away …
What’s In A Smile
Good evening. Friday blog. My daughter teaches dental. Good oral care is at the top of her list. A beautiful, genuine smile, that comes from the heart, is worth more than gold! Do you smile at people when you are out and about? If you give someone, anyone a big smile, you will usually get …
I’m Glad I Danced With You
Good evening. Thursday blog. A little about Denny tonight. A metaphor of sorts. He came waltzing into my life, like dancers in a ballroom. My car accident came out of nowhere. The policeman who came in the donut shop, out of nowhere. He was shy and I was mouthy and sarcastic. Those blue eyes of …
God Is Close To The Broken-hearted Psalm 34:18
Good evening. Wednesday blog. I am reading the book Heartbroken Loss of a spouse. I don’t know that I have ever read a book this fast. Written by a Christian Hospice Counselor, Grief Specialist, he has written many books! My life is never going to be the same, learning how to grieve well and breathe. …
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Comfort Zone
Good evening. Tuesday blog. I had my support group from Zeph Center tonight, on Zoom. We talked about complacency and moving out of your comfort zone! This bedroom I spend most of my time in, is very comfy and cozy. This is the spot where we spent most of his last two years of life. …
Follow The Grief Brick Road
Good evening. Monday blog. Who does not know the movie and the song. The Yellow Brick Road, more importantly, what were they looking for at the end of the journey? A Home, Denny and I raised our family on a brick road in East Toledo. It was a beautiful street when we moved in, 40 …
Fathers Day Post
Good evening. Sunday blog. Happy Fathers Days to all of you men that have various titles. The kids and I all had a rough day. That does not mean we had a bad day. They spent the day with their spouses and kids! I went to my granddaughters church, saw grandsons and great grandson. The …
Heavy Heart
Good evening. Saturday blog. Sitting and thinking of our children. Their first Fathers Day without him, their dad. No shopping for special gifts or needs. Reading all of the cards, to pick just the right one. No gathering at a restaurant. I will miss all of that also. Always a gift and card from me …
I Will Not Be Defeated…..2Corinthians 4:8-10
Good evening. Friday blog. I will not let grief beat me down or rob me of my life, or family. Grief is a thief. I know I have said that before. I’m not giving up and I’m not giving in. I have a Bucket list. No, I am not sharing it. I don’t have any …
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To Journal Or Not To Journal
Good evening. Thursday blog. It’s not for everyone! I have off and on through my adult life! Always quitting, like everything else. I started my 8th journal today. Started in 2014, after the gambling confrontation with family. We all had a lot of pain going on. I call them, Life and Prayer Journal. I like …
Today, Color Me Happy
Good evening. Wednesday blog. We walked this morning, 6 miles, someone has blisters. Not me. My feet paid there dues. Both of my feet took a beating in the beginning. I do believe, no pain, no gain. I also believe, take care of yourself, while easing into new things! Blisters hurt, I have had plenty. …
Marilyn’s Heart 