Good evening. Thursday blog. I fight regret everyday. What good does it do? None!!! Regret is a negative destroyer! Not one thing can be done to change the past, leave it there. If COVID had not come along, I would be with all of my family, at all of the grandchildren’s events and sporting events! …
Author Archives: Marilyn Bodi Reed
Laughter In Uncertainty
Good evening. Wednesday blog! I a big on making moments count. Especially in light of our last 7 years! None of us knows! When you get the chance to see someone and tell them how you feel, do it. I said what a busy week I have. I was making icing this morning, 2nd day …
Laughter Is Good For The Soul
Good evening. Tuesday blog. I went to Inkeys tonight for our daughters B-day, with her family. I said she cracks me up. When we were able to have big family holidays, daughter and daughter in law are hilarious together. I love sarcastic humor. Don Rickles and Regis Philbin, just plain funny! That’s my 2 gals …
Busy Day…….. Equals Very Tired
Good evening. Monday blog.I cannot keep my eyes open. I walked 6 miles, made our daughters B-day cake for tomorrow, I made cookie dough, baked half. My cousin came over, an hour later he was in the ER. Prayers for him. They kept him! I went across the field to take care of his Lily …
In This Life…………..
Good evening. Sunday blog. You will have trouble and trials of many kind. It is so true. I do not know how one survives the many things that life throws are way. I choke on it everyday. I cling to Gods promises. I wouldn’t be able to breathe or get past the pain I am …
Kindness, Continued
Good evening. Saturday blog. It’s a really new normal that everyone wants. Something that all should have been practicing for years! I never heard anything about kindness growing up. My parents were not mean to us, I don’t remember anyone saying kindness. We were to be seen, not heard. I never heard that word at …
Kindness
I am off to bed. Start fresh tomorrow. Thank you for understanding and your support. Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
You Cannot Trust Grief …… It Is A Thief And A Liar
Good evening. Thursday blog. So many reasons to be happy about things, and I am. I worked today. Cleaning houses does keep the mind busy. Went home, had supper compliments of mom. Got ready for my grandsons football game. Being with family always helps. Driving home, The Old Songs by Barry Manilow, we saw him …
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Love, Grief And Balance
Good evening. Wednesday blog. Well, I did it! I joined the senior bowlers again. This time, I’m staying, unless I get sick. So, God willing. I was a little nervous. Afraid to venture out of my comfort zone, meaning this bedroom. Two people I bowled with have lost spouses. They welcomed me with open arms. …
Life Keeps Moving
Good evening. Tuesday blog. If you don’t move with it, you might get lost in the shuffle. Denny, without a doubt was the most ambitious man I have ever met. The Toledo Police Department, worked all 3 shifts in a rotation. Your body barely had time to catch up and time for another! He projected …
Grief Tatoos
Good evening. Monday blog. Are expressions of love. I am sure there are many that don’t understand the concept of such a thing. I can assure you, I am not delusional. I love all of my extended family, kids, grandkids, cousins, etc. Just about all of them percentage wise, have tatoos. Now, I understand. Sometimes …
Grief Waves Do Not Stop
Good evening. Sunday blog. I don’t think I have anything to say, that you have not already heard! When I was 16, our family went to Florida to see my Grandpa. Any one who knew me then and knows me now, my hair is always fixed, in public, even the beach in Miami. You don’t …
Forever Yours
Good evening. Saturday blog. Forever yours means, With love for eternity, or the end of a letter, or just the end. Our only end is here on earth. In the final end, Forever Yours does mean love for eternity. Then we will be complete! No more tears of missing you. I hope your eyes are …
What About Before And After
Good evening. Friday blog. Sometimes we skirt around topics. I love before and after pictures of anyone and everyone. Obviously they put in work somewhere at some point in time! All of TV talk shows and magazines zero in on how wonderful change can be and is. So far, I am fortunate enough to still …
Grandkids First
Good evening. Thursday blog. It is 11:00pm. Way past my bedtime. I went to my grandsons football game. He scored 3 touchdowns. Going to bed! I will write 1st thing tomorrow after my walk! Good night. God bless.❤️🤗🙏🏻🤗❤️
Sad Or Glad Day…….. You Decide
Good evening. Wednesday blog. After Grief Share last week, I have been analyzing my moods and feelings! I myself am not living a sad or defeated life. My spouse of 42 years, total time together was 45 years. I am sad. No other way to describe it. It hurts to my very core! I also …
87 Is Just A Number
Good evening. Tuesday blog. Mom had so many Birthday wishes! All across the USA! Pizza, pie and cake. Family called and stopped by. She had quite a day. She was tired, went right to bed. Which is where I am heading. She had a wonderful day. Appreciate your Birthdays, you don’t know if it’s your …
Gone 8 Months……… Still Unbelievable
Good evening. Monday blog. 8 months today, still unreal. I don’t know if it will ever really sink in! No walk because of storms. Made moms Peach Birthday Pies. Her favorite, Peach anything! My youngest grandson asked for Paprika’s last Spring. Then the pandemic and distancing. Today he got it. He kept saying how good …
Tears Are Prayers Too
Good evening. Sunday blog. God knows my mind and heart. I don’t have to be sitting in this room to cry. Whatever I’m doing that we might have done together, brings tears. We did a lot together. When we sing about heaven at church, I cry, thinking of the day we will be together. I …
Memories That Shake Your Soul
Good evening. Saturday blog. I chose this title tonight, because of all of the memories that keep popping up on FB everyday! I believe that is a wonderful feature to take us back to a place in time! It was August of 2019 that things started going downhill. Therapy was not helping him anymore. The …
What Is Real Love
Good evening. Friday blog. I heard an old Dolly Parton and Kenny Rogers song the other day. One I have not heard in a long time. Take the time to read the words, very much Denny and I. We didn’t always act like we were in love, but we were always. We really put each …
Grief Share Tonight
Good evening. Thursday blog.I am taking tonight off! Evenings are my worst while writing about Denny and I. I did work today and went to the class starting back for the fall. Please excuse me. I just want to go to bed! Thank you for understanding. I’ll be back tomorrow. God is good! Good night. …
When You Walk Through A Storm….. You’ll Never Walk Alone
Good evening. Wednesday blog. Only God knows the storms He sees us through and why! Death of our loved ones is promised for all of us! The painful storms are not knowing when, how, age. None of us could possibly prepare for any of it in advance! We have, we must accept what we cannot …
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Patience Is A Virtue
Good evening. Tuesday blog. Who made that statement, probably had zero tolerance! I am patient with others, I hope. I do not cut myself a lot of slack. I think I am at a 50/50 I smile as much as I cry or I cry as much as I smile. Do not have it all …
Monday’s Are Painful
Good evening. Monday blog. This is going to be short. I am overwhelmed with sadness today. 31 weeks ago we had to say goodbye! I am exhausted from thinking about it. This is not a normal day for me. I still walked, I took pictures, I am happy talking to deer, no comments, I smile, …
A Letter To Self…….Who Said You Can’t Do That
Good evening. Sunday blog. Negative-Positive talk. One of my favorite topics! When Denny was a Police Officer, he looked sooo handsome in his uniform, of course the gun goes with it. I was afraid of his gun. I had respect for it! It was not meant to be in my hands or our children. It …
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Climb Your Mountain………Do Not Give Up
Good evening. Saturday blog. What’s your mountain? Do you have one? Sometimes we don’t know, and it could be right in front of us! I didn’t know things, past things, can be conquered, if you are willing to put in the time and effort! I didn’t know I needed recovery, until I got into recovery. …
Never Give Up…….. Your Journey Does Not End Here
Good evening. Friday blog. What’s your dream? Didn’t we all have dreams at some point in time? I did. They were not big career plans. I always wanted to look nice, but, never thought I did. If someone said it, I didn’t believe them! I grew up in the traditional home. Mom married young, had …
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Thankful Thursday
Good evening. Thursday blog. I really do count my blessings. I miss Denny so much, he was a very special blessing, every single day. Nothing could ever replace that. It has been a big birthday month, which means I got to be with a lot of my family. Two soccer games and tomorrow night football, …
What Is True Love Anyway
Good evening. Wednesday blog. For those of you that do not know, our love grew out of a car accident and a ticket, from the policeman to the Dunkin Donut waitress! I love our story, our kids and grandkids do also. You can’t imagine, so many ups and downs in a whirlwind relationship. We were …
Grandchildren Heaven
Good evening. Tuesday blog. August is a big Birthday month with our kids and grandkids! Sports are allowed now, with limited tickets. My second soccer game tonight. My sons family, all there. My daughters family, this week. One plays the flute and I am going to the football game. The other has a birthday. All …
30 Weeks……..I Am Still Breathing
Good evening. Monday blog. I think tonight I will just share my post from this morning. 30 weeks, I cannot even say it without falling apart. My heart and my mind keep getting mixed up. I did 6 miles this morning. I baked cookies, had some errands to run. Mom wanted tacos, she couldn’t wait …
Sunday……….. The Day Of Rest
Good evening. Sunday blog.I have some very fond memories of Sunday’s past. Starting when I was young! My dad took my sister and I to church with his mom, my grandma. My mom always had a big dinner ready when we got home. My mom was an excellent cook and baker in her day. Now, …
I Give Everyday To You Lord
Good evening. Saturday blog. I am learning more everyday how I have to break each day down into bits. So I can process where my feelings are at. I must not forget, one day at a time, always! We are not promised one minute more, let alone a whole day. Tackle each thing I have …
Peace In My Valley
Good evening. Friday blog. I am at peace in many areas. Missing Denny is not one of them! A memory just came through from last August 21st. I was walking in the early morning, my post said how sad my heart was. He was still in the hospital. Today the 21st of August, he is …
Only Appreciation Tonight
Good evening. Thursday blog. Not much of a blog tonight. I have been sitting here for 1 1/2 hour. It’s been a weepy evening! I can’t even put my finger on it! My day went great. I really got a lot done. But, when it comes, I don’t hold back. The last thing I want …
Some Memories Are Bittersweet
Good evening. Wednesday blog. I talk a lot about memories. Now, I tell people, take special pictures. It’s all you will have someday! Then there is the Facebook memories that do not die. I year ago today Denny failed his swallow test while in the hospital. It was pretty shocking to us that he could …
Recognizing Mental Health
Good evening. Tuesday blog. It has a face, a personality, and that has long been hidden as something to be ashamed of and certainly not dinner conversation! I cannot remember a happy time ever, from grade school. I did not know how to relate to much. I believe as part of my mental problems, that …
Change Is Always Possible……… If You Are Still Breathing
Good evening. Monday blog! Everyday when we open our eyes, that’s your second chance at change! Your parents, your siblings, your spouse, your children, or friends are not the reasons why your stuck! You can blame everyone everywhere, in the end, it’s just you! I will be forever grateful for all of the change in …
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All About Stuff
Good evening. Sunday blog. How about it? We all have stuff going on. Stuff that is important to me, might mean 0 to you. It’s all about what a person has going on! We all have a lot on our plate and yet some of us can handle it as it comes and some cannot. …
My Hero…… My Husband
Good evening. Saturday blog. Hero=Denny. Denny=Hero. I know I talk about Denny all the time. He was like magic. Like a Knight in shining armor. He was in the hospital for 9 weeks in 2013. I believe that was the start of Parkinson’s. Diagnosed in 2014. I can’t speak for our kids, but, I did …
The Other Side Of Grief
Good evening! Friday blog! I have been doing something about grief every day. No, the crying has not stopped. I really don’t care if it doesn’t stop. I know where I am in this walk! I’m not perfect. Nor do I want to act like I am! I don’t think this pain is going anywhere. …
A Lot In A Year
Good evening. Thursday blog. Where do I begin? You cannot dwell on things that have not happened yet, but, yet, you know! I tried to take Denny out as much as I could. We had a few short road trips. You know how memories pop up every day on FB. One year ago today, Denny …
For Every Tear…..Brings Positive Actions
Good evening. Wednesday blog. I cannot say enough, what walking and exercise has done for me. My cousin used to tell me he got high from running. I laughed at him. Now he laughs at me. I don’t have anything stopping me from staying out, as long as I want. 7 miles today. It makes …
What Is A Widow
Good evening.Tuesday blog. I do not like my new title. I have avoided it as much as I can. My profiles say wife widow. I really loved being a wife. Especially to Denny. He loved my pancakes with bacon. He liked cereal to. One of the hardest parts of this whole widow thing, how do …
Life Is What We Do……With What We Have Been Given
Good evening. Monday blog. We have choices everyday. If we take a few minutes to collect our thoughts for the day, when we get up. We can plan in our head or write it on paper, as a guide, before we react to something, and then be sorry the rest of the day. Not able …
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Sunday’s Are Special
Good evening. Sunday blog. When I was growing up, there was not a lot open. Sunday’s were respected. Now with the COVID, the illness is the respected one, if you are following rules, mandates and, for the love of a mask! I must say, people have gotten very creative with there masks. Kinda fun looking …
The Best Day Of The Week….. Is Called Family
Good evening. Saturday blog. Today was another family day. Yesterday shopping with my daughter. Riding in the car together, always laughter. Today, Birthday with daughter in law and family. And of course that includes my special little man. He absolutely melts my heart. As happy as he makes my heart, that’s how sad my heart …
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Laughter Is Good For The Soul
Good evening. Friday blog. I do love to smile, and I try to keep it even with tears. Denny always told how much he loved my smile. I loved his smile, but, he did not believe me! I kept telling him! Mom and I laugh at each other, with each other and sometimes we don’t …
I’ll Be Seeing You
Good evening. Thursday blog. Isn’t that a nice thing to say to someone? I think so. It’s also that beautiful, old song, from the movie, The Notebook. If you have not seen that love story, you should. I have always been a sap for love stories. Each one that comes out was my new favorite. …
Marilyn’s Heart 